From A Distance

Another turning point in my life is about to begin

2011-06-02T20:10:00.296+01:00

We dressed up formally to attend the Business School Graduation Ball held on 26th of May 2011 at Hilton Hotel...

This article content is mainly about my thoughts at the moment which is a new chapter of my life is going to begin.. Since these photos do all the talks, I prefer to pour everything out from my mind instead of just the event..

Pinky Dress of the day..

Flash back the moment when I stepped in my first UK's land, Newcastle Upon Tyne for the purpose of continue my degree studies since last year 2010 of September. I took flight to a place alone where I unfamiliar with and settled down at this place independently...

Life goes on just like from a kid to a pupil studies in Primary School, then from a student studies in the High School to a College... Everything seems to be arranged for your own sake...But as time goes by, we grow older enough and able to decide for our chosen life at this point..

After my college's life, I decided to leave my home country far far away, chose a different path among my peers, that seems to be a big turning point in my life...I told myself I wish to secure different level of my life increasingly as life should be climbed higher and higher to possess a committed, independent, knowledgeable and confident self in every steps that I took...

Time pass just like a blink, everyone says that...Indeed, it's time for me to meet another turning point in my life again..

The congregation is just around the corner...It seems the end of my Uni's life whereby I have more privileges as well as my possession to pick which paths I will need to go when I'm standing just right middle of the junction roads now...

This graduation ball reminds me that my authority on holding my own life has become more powerful as well as my responsible to my acts... This graduation ball informs me I should merely grant my study life as comes to an end and making a next decision in the chain that makes it the most conspicuous link for myself.... There's no advantages for the predecessors, because it ain't how fast I got deployed with success. Perhaps, it's more about my soul linked with the path that I chose.

This time, it is a stupendously important moment that I tend to pay attention on...I always remind myself to hold my faith until the end of the road despite of all those big and little incidents come towards. I hold my belief...

I've finished up written my thoughts, let's start the Photos' talk session at the Ball !!

My lovely classmates, pretty Hong Konger Eva and pretty Thet from Myanmar.

Julie Crumbley, our Buyer Behaviour Tutor

The groupmates of Marketing Management with Matthew Sutherland, my favourite tutor for the whole semester..

FOAM party~

2011-05-23T14:31:00.001+01:00

Sorry for the late post about this party, but at least I still posted it right...so~ apology is accepted!

Let's start the party...!
The foam party..It sounds fun right? Indeed, it is truly a fantastic party that I've ever had!
Well then, how does it look like?

Tadah!!!!

When the timing is right there, foam will be poured from the top down to flood all over us! yea~ that how its happen!!! And the foam will flood until your knees!!! Seriously, I am totally in love with this kind of party...
Then enjoy it!

As you can see, the party is not about all nice dresses, shirts or sexy wear, but it's all about fun, craziness and it's awesomely excited! Therefore, suitable and comfortable wearing will do for this awesome party which it will absolutely make you wet after the foam has dried out...People like to wear scandals, vest tops, spaghetti tops or singlets and some girls would wear bikini as well...Then those guys will probably take off their tops so you sometimes might see some unwanted-to-see body shape...hahaha~

So I wear simple tops and for me, I don't wear eye lashes anymore to prevent any uncomfortable or embarrassing situation happened to me while I get silly in the party..hahaha~ Here's my dress up..

Love me no more

2011-05-22T17:31:00.002+01:00

I never expect you to read my mind
but
you never wanted to listen to it...

I may be the one who make things bad..
but
you are the one who turn the circumstances even worst..

You never know me...
and
I can't barely feel your love...

If things don't improve,
I rather make my decision....
To stay here....

Do you listen to me?

如果我的期待是错的，那爱上我，也是一种错误

2011-05-17T04:35:00.002+01:00

当事情变得有点僵硬，加上格性火爆的我，引起了我们之间的纠纷，在你心里，你只看见问题的出现在于谁对谁错。。。而对我而言，情侣之间的纠纷是因为我们其中一方不喜欢这样的我们，而自己希望我们可以是那样的。。。
结果，就会在争吵的时候，一直的狡辩，其实只希望最终要表达的还是讲出自己将来希望的我们。。。

若你非要注重对与错的看法而解说，
那我想说，爱上我，是一个错误。。。

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Worry through an unknown

2011-04-28T13:39:00.000+01:00

Had been plagued by something which is so indescribable since last night...
I never ever know how to express my true feeling as well as this time...
I can't figure out what I am worrying for...Perhaps, there's someone help me shed some light...

I honestly trust the one who I suppose to trust although it is not entirely since every circumstance might have excluded... At least I know I'm trusting the right person...
But,
what makes me frowned?
I ponder it deeply and then surrounded by one question..
Do I trust myself?
The confidence that a person suppose to have has inclined when it comes to an uncertainty..
when you can't know what everything is happening around...
when you feel like being buried deep down separately..
when you can't even find out what answer do you actually want...

Then you finally realize, it isn't a matter of anybody, it's a matter of your ownself..
My confidence to myself has faded because I couldn't find any reason to stop it as I consciously know anything can be happened just like a blink without any intention where there has no one fault...

"Goes with the flow just seem to be too lost for me..."

I hate walking with no direction...

Traffic Light Party @ OHSO club!

2011-04-13T00:20:00.000+01:00

We dressed up colourfully for this party which is a chance to show your current status!

Here we are in the Traffic Light Party at OHSO club!!

DRESS CODE:

* Taken - RED
* Undecided - ORANGE
* Available - GREEN

* On a Break - PINK
* Want to Make Friends - YELLOW
* Looking for fun - BLUE

Sprung up the Spring!

2011-04-10T20:46:00.001+01:00

Hello peeps!! I'm back in this Spring!!! LOLx~ I was so darn busy for my professional project (sort of dissertation) for 10k words and I'm now relief to fly wherever I want to! yesh~!!

Therefore, we planned to go for a break before rushing for the other two more assignments which due on May...
The place we would go was called Seaburn which is the suburb of Sunderland where the place has beautiful seaside promenades, an amusement park, a lot of fish and chips shop, small guest houses and so on...It is a nice place to go I should say....Especially having fun in such spring weather instead of freaking hot day!
As you can see our photos look really nice under such sunny days!!!

Seaside's View~

Taken randomly..

Party Night with purpose?

2011-03-12T00:37:00.011Z

It's time to post photos before I start my article with bunch of words..

Plainly, people go to club is just to rock their night..

However, there's a lot of people who go club with purpose..
Undoubtedly, you know what I'm talking..

Some people might have a thought that white skin will be the best for them to be their partner..
Will that just simply for fun to have an experience or to have a blast new to show off to your own people?
Indeed, showing off to others about the interracial relationship or a night-sleep ( you know what I mean) is obviously advertising owns lewd...

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This is my story~

2011-03-11T13:51:00.003Z

If I would be like this someday..
www.this-is-my-story.com/v/0AC7ITJZWSSW

Thank you to all people who has supported me!!
I wouldn't forget anyone who give me a hand..
haha~

When my day of success has reached,
there's always a lot more of missions for me to complete..
and my contribution must go on..

Life goes with challenges, that can only be considered as an amazing life...
Amazing life, how are you going to predominate it?

:D

It's FUN!

Love with long distance

2011-02-26T01:44:00.005Z

"Holding on my love...Making me feel comfortable..
Finally, my thoughts weren't entirely intact..."

How does "love" works when your beloved one is staying far far away from you?

Somehow, people jump into the conclusion saying that the low possibilities of maintaining a long-distance relationship..Probably, ends up with a broken heart..
I wonder if the break up really related to the "long-distance"...
I'm not so sure tho, maybe there still contain some little tiny problems between them which accumulated day by day that caused the break up...Don't blame on long-distance~

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Yellow up!!! Dinner's Outing~

2011-02-18T03:21:00.012Z

Hong Konger Rita's big day~

They planned to go Gusto to enjoy the Italian taste for her birthday celebration~ wootz..
Nice weather for that day..
And of course, nice environment as well as the food indeed...

I only have a few pictures of the food to show which I grab it from my friend ^o^...

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Dance on da Newcastle's Floor!

2011-02-10T00:26:00.001Z

Flash back every single moments before I step into United Kingdom's Land...
I used to hang out around with my babes...
Babe Ashley, Babe Vera, Babe Jamie...
We gossip together, we had dinner together, we drink and chill, party together and etc ...
The most important one is...
We danced together, and we will continue dancing sooner~

Farewell Party before I leave Penang..

After I came into the Brit's land, there have a lot of people ask me about the club over here...
Everyone thought UK must have dope clubs, fun place to chill with...
What I can tell is...Malaysia still has its own flavor~ LOLx..

Well, in UK...There's a lot of club, therefore, they will need to keep updating something fun in their club...such as organized some events, theme party and whatever that can attract clubbers!!

I wasn't had too much partying here due to the weather which always make me to surrender to go for a party...LOLx...
As the Brit girls here are so crazy, they wear normal sexy party dress without stocking, without coats go to the club by walking even if it is snowing!!
I remembered I saw some girls was shouting out loud, wearing their sexy dress with high heels, walking on the snow's pathway while it is snowing...Imagine the snows stick on your hair, and few minutes later your pretty hair is dump!! I couldn't accept this as girls normally take such a long time to make up themselves and just being spoil like that by those fucking snows...

So, Malaysians...You should feel chuffed to bits by having such nicer weather in 365 days which can allow you to go club with no worries whenever you want and wear whatever you like!!! ^o^

Anyway, Newcastle has various different kind of party...But, for sure I only choose to go which I prefer to go...Especially those theme party or events~
Let's start party!

Foam Party -->
So far, the best party ever that I've experience!! The party was organized by our university's club...

Before the party has started...
After that, the foams splashing all over on us!!

Chinese New Year abroad in English Land~

2011-02-08T03:26:00.001Z

Bunny year....
How will it be?
Prosperous! Healthy and Wealthy!!!
haha~

Everybody thought I will be back for celebrating Chinese New Year...
Absolutely wrong~ No ones here went back for celebrating due to we have to study at first, secondly, it doesn't need to spend a pence to go back because my family went to Bali trip! LOLx..

So how was my Chinese New Year here??

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In a nutshell of my 20th~

2011-01-14T14:28:00.003Z

Have been a year since my 20th birthday after...

Pressie from them for my 21st Birthday during assignments submission period!!~

What have I done for my previous 20th?!
I wonder if I completed it with a life that full of meaning..

My 20th,
with a laughter of friends..
with sweetest love from my beloved one..
with bunch of cares from my family...
with plenty of dreams of mine...
and finally, started to walk on my pathways...
to chase for my desire success..

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Plenty Thoughts!

2011-01-11T05:22:00.001Z

"A drama reflect my thinking, a flirting alert my changing..."

I just finished watching a Hong Kong Drama < 女人最痛〉.. It was a realist movie, and after watching it, I've plenty of thoughts in my mind... It's really express something from mine, I was thinking will I be like just in the drama... I haven't work in a society yet, but I couldn't make sure what I will be after that... It really brings me to think of the issues of personality and attitude... Being selfish, being realistic.. Is success need sacrifice?!

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London's Christmas, London's Fireworks

2011-01-04T04:28:00.000Z

Hiya London!!

I were being there for 9 days to have my chillax Christmas and 2011 New Year celebration..
The purpose of staying there for such a long time for sure to explore their Boxing Day culture and experience my first life ever celebrating New Year at London~ Eye...
Imagine I posted every schedule for our 9 days trip!!! =,= I'm sure my post will be burst!
So, I will just let my picture to talk since it's the best way which you don't expect to read a bunch of words right...^^
I posted some pictures where some attraction that some people wouldn't know...

In general, most of the people know London's attraction would be Big Ben, London Bridge, British Museum, Buckingham Palace and etc...Instead of talking these places that people already familiar with, I prefer to show some nice markets and some nice places in briefly..

St. Pancreas is behind me..where a place that has an awesome architecture of building to discover..And my first sight on it was " jaw dropping"~

Oxford Street and Regent Street...These streets are linked and they are girl's shopping HEAVEN!! Branded? Fast Fashion Brand? Everything are here!

A random church nearby Kingcross where I think it has amazing door!!

26th of December, I met my bestie Maple in front of Burberry shop...After having a blast shopping with her, we went to China Town to have our first meal, it's our dinner tho~ XD
China Town, wherever it is...It's the best food heaven!

Had our Dinner at Four Season, China Town.

27th of December, Harrods (considered as luxury shopping departments) was having their sales too....I strongly recommend this as it is really a British way to shop...Everything inside is well-decorated included their washrooms~ I just can say...I will go Harrods AGAIN!

As both of us want to take picture with Harrods, but the angle wasn't that perfect...Waste~

Simultaneously, you MUST NOT miss out the "English Afternoon Tea" in Harrods~
As I've just mentioned, Harrods are considered as a luxury place, so you've to expect the spending on the Afternoon Tea....Anyhow, it's a good try right! The place with nice environment, nice service, nice food, nice pianist...I'm sure you'll feel comfortable there while having your tea-time...

Tea-Time at Harrods...

Michael Jackson in Harrods!!!

Awww~ Giant Teddy!! Zoom in to see the price~ ^o^

We spent the whole day in Harrods from 10am to 7pm!! omg~ Then me and my friend decided to walk back from Harrods to our Hostel where located at Russel Square...haha~ I know we were crazy walking down the street like that while winter! LOLx...
However, it was a good decision that we've made because we found a place while on the way which was really surprising....

I didn't know what was the statue behind but this is not the main point..XD

Tadah~ We saw Winter Wonderland at Hyde Park where it is a fun fair opened for Chritmas Celebration...It's amazing out there...^^

On 29th December, we decided to shop in the market instead of those outlets or departments...
In my opinion, Covert Garden is a very best place to look up and the market brings different feeling compare to others...There have lot of shops and foods, I just simply like it~

Day~

Night!

30th December, we went to Spitalfield Market...You love vintage?! Then there will be a great place for you!!!

Vintage oh Vintage~ I took this picture because I like the "ah ma" mannequin~ haha!

There's a lot of place or street you can walk around there...But the market in Spitalfield closed at 4pm~ =,= It's kinda early I know...But there are still shops outside where basically they're selling vintage clothes, vintage fashion and everything is in VINTAGE!

After that, we walked along Bank Street then St. Paul...
St. Paul is one of the attraction destination in London as well...This cathedral has a fascinating history and it looks awesome with inspiring interior and features...

St. Paul~

Part of St.Paul behind us~

31st Dec - 1st Jan, 2011
Big Ben~ Here I come!!
We were there to have our New Year Celebration at London Eye and Big Ben..

The place is flooded with crowd start from 6pm!!
Seriously, it was a very good experience on having count down in front of London Eye, and besides Big Ben... However, this will be my first time ever and will be my last time as well!!
Why?? Read through....
I reached there at 7pm++..
We suppose to find some place to sit down and planned to enjoy our dinner...Unfortunately, the cafes or restaurant nearby are all close...Left only two cafes, one Tesco!
Everyone were fighting to buy thing in Tesco so that to grab something to eat, and as you can imaging there had super long queue in front of those two cafes...
Then, we only noticed that they limit amount of people to get in the place to see fireworks nearby Big Ben and London Eyes...That's why everyone was preparing and waited there from 6pm!

At last, we have no clue about that so we bought some food and drinks from Tesco and started to wait for the time to pass by....
We started our waiting from 8pm..
Used 1 hours 30 minutes to queue for Toilet after that!!!

Queuing for toilet....take me 1hr30mins!!!wtf~

Taking picture with london eyes...

Seriously, this event full of foreigners but not local people...As I think the Brits wouldn't choose to be so stupid for waiting several hours to see 10mins fireworks....We did that tho~! LOLx..
Waiting for 4 hr in such freezing weather surrounded by different people especially those black skin one....Thus, it was a tough period...LOLx~

And finally, left 5 mins to 12!!!

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Happy New Year!!!

My 2011 years in UK~
Hopefully, the best life experience in a new land and it's one of my pathway towards my dreams...
My new journey has begun~

London, my awesome life experience~

London Boxing Day's items grab!!

2011-01-01T23:22:00.000Z

holla~
I've just back from London today since I departed on 24th of December..
Photos of London will be uploaded soon once I've receive all those photos from my friend... ^^

Well, the purpose of posting this article is to show what I'd bought from London for their December HUGE sale which they call it as Boxing Day (26th Dec)...
What I mean about HUGE sale would be most of the shops will have about 50-70% discount for selected items include luxury goods such as Burberry, Alexandra Wang, Armani, Gucci, Prada and etc are all on sale...

However, you will need some luck and fate with the items that you wish for..Because, there will have heavy crowd to grab things that they want, they grab items just like fighting.. It's a very crazy scene actually!!

I actually went there to gain experience, to explore how Boxing Day looks like...For me, I promise I will never go for 2nd times again!!! It was really crowded and the whole street full of people especially ASIAN!! And, some of my friends started their queue at 7am to wait for the store to open at 10am...Once the door open, that's the nightmare started! See video posted below on Boxing Day, probably this kind of scene will happen in Selfridge Department in Oxford Street, London...But I didn't go there for queuing.. haha~ Because I prefer to have more sleep than grabbing those goods...LOLx

That's the Boxing Day looks like~ Fight for sale items, once finish, it's finished!! That's why I say you must need to have some luck...LOLx

Well, I didn't grab anything on the 26th (the exact Boxing Day) because the crowd really blew my mood off..:( It's still a very good experience tho~

So, most of the thing that I bought were after the Boxing Day.. Properly grab things from Harrods (where a very famous shopping center) and Knightbridge Street and some famous market in London....

Items in the picture: Mulberry Margaret Shoulder Bag, 2 pieces of Urban Oufitters clothes, a blazer from Public Beware, Zara Small Shoulder Bag, Skin care from Lush Fresh Handmade Cosmetic.

p/s: Sorry about I couldn't show you what's inside the Burberry paper bag because that's my BF's present..haha~

I found this bag coincidentally in Harrods since I was very disappointed when I couldn't find anything that I like for the whole day besides this... This bright colour shoulder bag has brighten my day actually.. :)

It has 2nd and 4th choices in the store that time, and I chose to buy the 4th one which is in plum colour that I felt in love on it at the first sight!!

The Mulberry Margaret Bag is named after the Princess Margaret as a tribute. The metal in front with the words " We Believe in Tea and Cake". Great plum colour and a classic timeless go-anywhere design is perfectly my choice~ After discount it's £360+ and it was £550++.

Next, I would like to recommend the Lush Fresh Handmade Cosmetic which their ingredient are all natural and without preservation!! They have very special product's usage such as facial serum in Bar Soap size!! I really like this shops and the fresh natural smells of them~ Therefore, I bought their absolute great mask after I tried it on my hand, I'm in love with it!! And I also bought their freshly toner and scrub-like cleanser which both of these are perfectly match with their mask!!

Love Lettuce Mask that I bought and you have to keep it in the fridge and used within 4 weeks of manufacture because it does NOT contain any preservation~ And it's really make my skin feel very comfortable after using this..I really love it!! well worth~!!!

After that, the most important shop that I want to recommend is the Public Beware shops!! Damn~ Their clothes designs are so much different with others...There is only a shop locates just nearby Liverpool Old Spitalfield Market...I bought a blazer which is grey in colours with stripe, the pattern is shown as below.

£40+ after discount, was £61

There is also a London's must shop store that name Urban Outfitters which is also British's brand..They have several branches in London, and I grab them in Covert Garden Market's store...Sale items that I bought are all half price!!! Cool~ £30 each, was £60 each!!!

Simple basic clothes which can easily match with different ideas...

Eventually, London would be a nice place to shop but sometimes, shopping still needs some luck and fate to see and grab what you want and like...

I wish yall have an awesome shopping spree for the new year!!!

New Year, New Image, New Items

Dance to live

2010-12-13T18:25:00.000Z

Peeps~!!

Have u hitz the dance floor in da club yet?!

Well, of course I miss the dance floor already babes!!!!
awwww~ I miss my girls and my only boy....my Disaster...

30th August 2010, Auto City "Cheerz Da Cwordz"

Here's the latest performance that we did before I came to UK....
Competition for "Cheerz Da Crowz" in Auto City.
Dance elements focus on street jazz and girl styles...

Feel free to drop me some comments after watching the shows...
I need more feedbacks...
thanks & enjoy~

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Brief Introduction for Disaster:
Disaster (the dance team) had formed one year ago with 5 girls who'd just knew each other for several months. Members include me, Vera, Ashley, Cisi and Jamie...We had trained for the purpose for the competition, and the dance elements that we trained were hip hop, break dance and locking...
We'd achieved the 2nd runner up for Ultimaxx Dance Competition (the first competition for the crew), then 1st runner up for Youth Dance competition in Nibong Tebal...

But, after a few months later, our two members (Cisi, Jamie) have left from the crew due to the reason of further their studies...
However, the enthusiasm are still there when the crew left only three girls...
After pausing for half year, the Disaster (Maggie, Vera and Ashley) had came into the town again...Yet, we'd decided to take part one of the competition "MY FM BlockBuster" where received a lot of good comments from the audiences..

Until a boy named Kelvin has joint us in the early July 2010....Followed by Raye for the purpose of Digi Live Tour competition that achieved 2nd Runner up, and then Yeezie for Cheerz Da Crowdz competition in August which was the latest competiton that we did...

Few weeks from the competition later, the leader which is me had left them to further my studies in UK... Ashley is now replacing my street jazz class in Fresh Beat Dance Academy...
But our journey are still on the go...

Here's some pictures for our dance's journey:

30th August 2010, Auto City "Cheerz Da Cwordz"

30th August 2010, Auto City "Cheerz Da Cwordz". Disaster with Bobby..

June 2010, "MY FM Blockbuster."

May 2010, Digi Live Tour 2nd runner up..

2009, "Ultimaxx Dance Competition" 2nd Runner Up.

Nevertheless, I believe our spirit and soul will never ends when there have no leader beside....
Will be back 7 months later my girls and boy...T.T

All of us have different dreams to achieve, but we have the common one to do together in our heart, to do what we love to be....Always have dance in our life...

we never be the champion before, but we gonna be someday...

Fashion Horoscope

2010-12-08T20:58:00.000Z

As I was so kind of keen on H&M before I live in Malaysia, because I don't get to understand why Malaysia doesn't have H&M store...

Anyhow, I can go to H&M whenever I want for just 10 minutes walk now!!!
yeah~!! I love H&M!! especially their Lanvin for H&M for their previous campaign..^^ LOLx..
ok, stop crapping...:)

The purpose for me to blog here is because I've found this interesting post in H&M website about the Fashion Horoscope for the year 2011!!

Click here to see the full article from H&M MAGAZINE.

For me, I'm the Capricorn's babe as they stated above that we're cautious, practical personality but we're ambitious too!!! I really strongly support this...It talks everything on mine! haha~ So, for my 2011 look, it has to be inspired by men's fashions.. Going to snatch my boyfriend's cloths!! hahaha~

So, have you found what kind of style will you be in the year 2011??!!

Hype it!

Christmas Market

2010-12-07T18:04:00.000Z

Hi peeps~ How are you doing?! Hopefully, everyone is doing great ya~

There's a festive in the run up to Christmas at Grey’s Monument, Grey Street and Grainger Street where are some street that I always need to walk along if I want to go Tesco to grab some food...
When I first step my feet on this Christmas Market, first thing that came into my mind was " UK Pasar Malam." ^o^
Despite of the market doesn't that big as ours in Malaysia one, it has represented the happy and fun of this coming Christmas...So it wouldn't disappointed me tho~

Just like our Pasar Malam, that gives us a very local gourmet ingredient of Malaysia, while for their Christmas Market, you can find a very real taste of Europe. You can get a curry wurst from Germany, waffles from Holland, paella from Spain and crepes – both sweet and savoury from France.

However, there have one thing that is so much different with our "Pasar Malam", which is their price doesn't seem to have like "Pasar Malam's" price instead... What I really expected before I came was, I thought their price will take care of our pocket compare to usual one, but it seemed I'm obviously wrong~ haha!

Anyhow, it is still a very fun place to hang around and of course not to miss out any chance to grab something scrumptious to eat...I'd spotted the Nougat with various of choices which is always my favorite, and it then end my 15quid up to have these Nougat!!!! ~hurt~ Regardless the blood sucking price, I did feel satisfied enough to have my favorite Nougat that really taste soooo goooood indeed...

I strongly recommend Tiramisu flavor Nougat. weee^^

Big Mussel- Seafood and Grill Restaurant

After the Christmas Market, me and my friend were decided to go for dinner and we hope to get something more local instead of China Town.. So, we went to Quayside, the Big Mussel Seafood and Grill restaurant...Nothing much to talk about this restaurant because I've fell in love with their seafood and superb value for money!!

My Fruits Pasta Seafood

My friend's Big Grill and Mussels' Platter

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Took a photo at Northumberland Street with their Christmas light decoration while on the way back to my warmy dorm...

That's all for my simple night!!!

More to share~

Urban Decay

2010-12-04T18:09:00.000Z

Hiya my girls,
I'd bought the make up palette in Boots last few weeks ago with the offered for the 3 for 2 promotion which means buy 3 related products and the cheapest get free!!

One of my friend was so keen on finding a basic-must-have eye shadow, and we'd chosen the Urban Decay Naked Palette for her.."The pigment-rich with an ultra-soft texture with 12th gorgeous neutral colors eye shadow, very creamy water proofed eye pencil with black and brown colors, and a famous urban decay eyeshadow primer potion..."A level of enthusiasm fell for us to not miss out this pretty promotion with this gorgeous must-have palette!!!

The actual price of the Urban Decay Naked Palette is £27.50..
But but, me and my friends had decided to buy this together so with the 3 for 2 offered, end up we can buy two free one!!!
So it finally cost me only £18.33 (MYR 91.65 based on 5 exchange rate)

Not to forget to try it out with a simple nature make-up on myself..
I'd used the nature brown color eye pencil to be my eye-liner instead of using the cool-fierce black color.. After I'd tried the brown color eye pencil, I'm officially fall for it..!! ^^
Of course, black color's eye pencil will still be useful according to the occasion like party or night-out with sexy outfit, or wanted to be a cool cold-blooded woman from the crowd...

Love love Naked!

As a Malaysian

2010-12-03T19:30:00.000Z

To be honest, I never ever wanted to take any slightly interested on the political environment beyond my mind...Because I always believe that we've got a very good environment to live with for these 50 years.... I might be a little too naive on this kind of thinking, I prefer not to know what is actually going on tho....Because, Malaysia are always that beautiful that has been stored in my mind for these 20+ years, I hold this inheritable thought tightly until today...

When the hot topic of "racism" comes into the town, that has became a really popular culture right now, I never really wanted to analyze it...Because when the fact has already been exposed, you will automatically understand the truth that had hidden for such a long time....I never wanted to put myself in the hat, because I believe all of these are actually a rumor for those politician to flossing their power or whatever purposes...I believe that it will be just a temporary topic without any meaning, and this topic will never last long...."I hope my believable is true..."

As a student that study abroad, I feel proudly to tell others that, we come from Malaysia, and we're Malaysian....A lot of people agree and envy that, we can speak more than 2 or 3 languages... ^^ And, as a Malaysian Chinese, we never exclude Malay as our first main language, and we really chuffed to bits by being a Malaysian...We're willing to learn, to respect it and feel proud of it...

We love Nasi Lemak, we love Teh Tarik, we love Batik, we love P. Ramlee......
I believe, Malays do love Wong Fei Hong, Bruce Lee and so forth...
Because each of one another -- the Rakyat Malaysia, happy to live together...

However, the true background of these 50 years, who knows what actually had been happened? But we never take too much intention to any issues seriously, because we just want to live happily in a good society..

The concept of "1 Malaysia", I hope it can be meant by what it really wants to mean...
If it is just a "slogan" to put a mask for our country or a rhetoric for the people, then it could be awfully humiliate the meaning of this beautiful concept...

Don't waste too much time to keep away from the reality of the tribute,
it will be a regrettable remark...

(Article inspired by recent video from Youtube named"Malaysian Must see!!! Namewee 1Malaysia story!")

Malaysia is my home

Plan for christmas and new year trip~

2010-12-01T00:07:00.000Z

I've been so crazy on finding those information about London's trip!! gossshh~ we have to plan for the accommodation, plan for the train ticket, plan for every every thing!!!! It really takes a lot of time to sort this out...and the bad new is, we still haven't plan for our trip for each day yet after we've just settled the hostel and train's tickets...

It took us two days to settle these two stuff!! Headache...
Seriously, this is the only first time I have to do a planning for a budget trip...Never done this before because I always just follow the majority in a trip..Unfortunately, this time will be only me and one of my friend...So, we gotta make all of this by our own self!! I seriously have no clue, end up, me and my friend are a little too tired on doing this...

I only realize that planning a trip are not that easy as we thought...It needs a tonnes of information, takes a lot time to make a good trip...

Let's give me some suggestions where to play in London...
ok~ I would have a really big shopping throughout the boxing days, and might use one more days to do extra digging! XD

Hopefully we can have a nice trip in London...

bless me babes!!

Snowing

2010-11-28T02:52:00.000Z

I'd just mentioned in my facebook about the earlier snows had covered the city unexpectedly compare to last year...It's the earliest snowing ever so far, but for people who never played under the snow before would be a good news, XD like us!! It's snowing...I was very excited, staring out my window, hand out to feel the snows...so soft, so fragile...

The snows had turned my mood up to the highest green meter.... It takes a few hours to shower the city, and everything outside had just whited-out in just a blink...I was staring on it and wanted to tattoo the scene into my memory...

We'd for sure to take some picture after our class on the next day... And never forget to play the snow activity at the night...Snow-ball fighting was absolutely awesome and building for snow man wasn't that easy as I thought!! It was so tired!!!
Anyway, we still had a blast one!!

heavy snowing...

I've got a lot more activities are coming soon!

The first trip in UK

2010-11-16T01:18:00.000Z

12th Nov 2010

Well, you'll not be surprise that I've neglected my blog for such a long time...But anyway, I've got something to share already! hohoho~

I've been in Newcastle for more than 2 months, and this is the first trip that I go with my new friends to Hull and York...
It's a very nice trip with them, even though we don't really have enough time to visit the city...
At least, we visited some tho~ :D
Let's start to travel to Hull and York!!

It took us around 1+ hour to reach Hull by train, and we went to "The Deep Aquarium." http://www.thedeep.co.uk/
To be honest, the website is a little too exaggerate, it's not that cool or nice instead... That's why it turns up a little not worthy for us to travel to Hull purposely... However, we still have some nice pictures for that...XD

With hong kong babies~

All of us...

Starfish staring on us!

Big Tank

Main Entrance

After that, we took another 45 minutes to reach York where a place that full of ghost stories in their history... We've checked in to our hostel (ACE), then headed to have dinner in a Italian Restaurant... Surprisingly, I saw Malaysia's flag was hanging with other countries' flags such as Australia, UK, US, Germany and so on...The main point is, Malaysia was the only Asia's flag there! Malaysia "boleh" nya~

The environment is nice right...

Can you spotted the Malaysia's Flag on the ceiling?

Full with rich food!!

Before we went back to our hostel, we'd taken some pictures with York's must-see-attraction..

The Clifford's Tower stands as a proud symbol of the power of England's medieval kings.

13th Nov 2010

The next day, was the time for us to rock in York...Basically, we went to the city center by walking and, we love York very much.. For ladies that born to love shopping, York is always the best choice to shop...We went to Mulberry outlet for our first destination..

We also found a lot of interesting shops too...

Hot Sausage for our lunch~ hehe..Nice try!

Besides that, you must also not miss up one of the attraction in York!! That's the York Minster. When I first look at this place, I was shocked with chin dropped~ It is so beautiful and spectacular!!

The York Minster is largest Medieval Gothic cathedral north of the Alps and a treasure house of 800 years of stained glass.

Unfortunately, we'd no luck to visit the cathedral due to some events on that day....But I promise, I will visit York again someday!!!

Listen up, for those who love shopping damn much, you must not miss this!! "The Designer Outlet" Don't worry, I will briefly explain what is Designer Outlet...^^ You'll find over 120 famous name stores at York Designer Outlet, with designer savings up to 60% off every day of the year. That include Paul Smith, Timberland, Fred Perry, Ted Baker, HUGO BOSS and so forth..

After this, of course we would need to have dinner before we went back to Newcastle...And, we chose a chinese restaurant, the food are absolutely yummy!! We ended our trip with delicious chinese food...

That's all for our lovely trip~

Bye~

Stay tune to read more

Your own way...

2010-10-03T22:08:00.000+01:00

Instead of finding the way to have a happy life, I always keep positive mind on staying happily...

I never find hard to know how would our relationship be because I believe that our determination will never lie...

I have a simple happy life, because I hold tight on believing in my expectation, my expectation bring up a meaningful life to me, that's why I love my life.....An expectation wouldn't be made up by one person, but with another one who willing to build this up together with you...
I found a person who give me my expectation...And also who might break my expectation and turn into disappointment...

"Hold your own, know your name, and go your own way...And everything will be fine...."
I listen to the music, telling me that everything will be fine when you've your own way to go...

Even if we always need to prepare the so-called "plan B" once your "plan A" couldn't be worked...I understand there will have some issues that might block our way....But, I never think of our "Plan B" because this is NOT a business...It is our relationship...It's ours...

Once you don't believe in your own expectation, that's become a disappointment...
You're the one who decide your destiny...
You and me are the one who decide our destiny...

Once you never believe in yourself, I will also lost my trust on our destiny...

I remain silence because I don't even want to think a bare possibility...

You're the one who decide yes or no

He miss me, and so do I

2010-09-24T06:00:00.000+01:00

It's 5AM, 24th of September in Malaysia's time...
He probably has walked inside a sweet dream...
I suddenly feel a motivation that push me to read his mind, and I did...
When I read every single word, my tears drop easily...

"Dear", that I love to call usually, this little single word has always melt my heart when I call it out.. I love to call you as my Dear, because you're the only one who has this privilege to be...

There's a moment I shed my tears on reading your mind, when I know you have million thoughts on me, and so do I...Especially when you listed out the moments when we were together, I....realizes every moments that we'd been together, it's so much fun and memorable, and it deserves to be remembered and appreciated...

When we went to cinema together,
when I ordered a bunch of food to taste, and finally you were the one who need to eat all of it...
when I help you to pop out your blackheads or pimples...
when I say which shoes or pants that you need to match with...

I hope I can do it all these again for thousands time or even million times...
I believe I can surely do these to you again and you will probably waiting for the moments although it is just a simple action...

During the period that both of us without each other, I realized that the love from me to you has increasing day by day...I'm sure you're the one who ever walk into my heart, whoever makes me so crazy in love to you...

During the moment when we're not besides to each other, I'm happy to hear from you that you're enjoying this current moments that you've someone for you to think of....And, there have someone is missing on you at the same time...You and me are not struggling on separating, in contrast, we're enjoying this to fill up better memories for the next moment, to brighten up the moment when we met, and when the moment we'll hand-in-hand again...

You will be my Dear forever who is irreplaceable...
And I believe, I will never leave you again..^^

"我真的好想你！没人陪我看戏

没人跟我按黑头`

回来后别想再离开我

不会再让你离开我！

DEAR想你！" quoted..

There have nothing to describe besides LOVE

Departures

2010-09-13T18:52:00.000+01:00

12th September 2010

10.10PM (M'sia)

(Ignore my pale face since no even foundation or any make for 16hrs flight!)

It’s time for me to fly, to leave Malaysia for one year….When I walked down the departures counter, I didn’t hug anyone of them…My parents, my brothers and my beloved dear….Because I didn’t want to make anyone sheds any tears for me….I keep in mind, it is just a short journey, everyone can see me after few months later….It’s not a big deal, it doesn’t take a long time for us to separate, that's why we don't need a hug…And, yes…I walked inside after seeing my dear again, and I can read his eyes…We want hug but we didn’t, and I decided not to do so because I scared to drop my tears…And I turn around, keep in mind that everything will be alright, it takes a short months to go…

13^th September 2010

12:56PM (M'sia)

6.45AM (Amsterdam)

I’ve reached Amsterdam Schiphol airport safely…I’ve been in the flight from KL to Amsterdam for almost 12 hours….It was not a good slept for me as you can’t even laid down properly but at least when I wake up, it was almost there.. By the way, I’m now sitting alone, typing down all my feeling of being alone down here, waiting for my next transit flight to Newcastle after one hour later….I’m not afraid but I feel it would be nice if I have friends be with or my parents together, it would be even nicer if my dear stay beside...I tried to SMS him by using my Hotlink, and it works….I’ve started to miss him…

15.10PM (M'sia)

08.55AM (Newcastle)

Here I am in Newcastle...I'm excited to see how the city looks like for me to stay within this few months...And, yeah, it's a very good study environment over here...Looks green, looks peace...
There have free service from my University to bring us to our own accommodation...Once I reach, I quickly done my internet service, when I online, I saw him has already waiting for me...The time is just so accurate for both of us to meet in skype...I feel pleased when listening on his voice...Feeling like he is just around me...^^

Grown Up through Competition

2010-09-03T18:01:00.000+01:00

My blog was death for such a long time, I've abandoned it for several months...OooOPS

I used to post any of my lifestyles in my blog long time ago with my true feeling and thinking that store in my mind, I would like to explode it out through my little bloggie...

Well, of course, for this time, I've plenty of mind that I need to express it out all the way...

Ok...Before the few weeks ago, I thought I'd figure out what all the wrongs that I'd ever made for my dance crew in terms of synchronization, choreography and etc....But, in fact, it seems a little worse off after I'd change something...I guess I'd missed out something very basic for my dance team....I might force them too hard to do something which exceed their ability, or I'd forget to guide them in foundation...I bring them fly when they didn't know how to walk, because I always thought they will find out when they get enough experiences....I guess this would be the biggest mistake that cause the result into up-side-down way...

For the reason I lose it, because I might be too much dependable and I might be too keen on learning from stars.... I never thought and I never even want to learn from people who I never heard before even if public agree that he/she is great....There have plenty of chance for me last few weeks, but I missed it because I think there have something more important than it which is the family...But, honestly, for the last time of me, I would probably learn any anything that I could even if there have plenty of blocks....I wonder, when I become such out of aspiration....I guess, because the days that I'm in Malaysia has been decreased day by day....
That's why I lost it, that's why I missed it..

I'm awake from that, the terms of originality is no longer that important as long as there have a modify, as long as you dance with full heart... And, I keep on watching their video, I ponder it deeply on the way they step up....I saw full effort, I saw their growth, maturity and confidence which not just build in last minutes....Besides, I consider mine one, and I know it's not because of choreography or synchronization, it's because lack of soul....Where are the soul gone? and, How could I lead them to find their own soul?

Other than that, I finally realize that, when it comes to effort, it comes with luck...
And, I finally understand why they keep on changing their name...

I am awake from this competition....

I remember every effort that we did

Directions

2010-06-24T07:15:00.000+01:00

I've been setting up my path before I step on it for years ago...I always hope my expectation will just go on smoothly, I put my faith into it....

I've been hoping for years, to wait for the right time, to start my real journey... But, when it is the time, I only realized that, I'm the only person who think it is right, who think this should be, who knows my way is going to disappear, entirely. It's been so hard for me to bring everything down and construct another way.... Yet, I only know I can't start all this by my own, just only me to start my own journey... This is awfully stupid when your own journey cannot be done by oneself, it's even worse when your thoughts are clarity that you're actually lack of ability to step on, and just like that...

I feel foolish, I feel helpless, I feel imma useless....

You have the path, but you will still need someone to bring you up....
It's not only myself to be with...
And, it's cut me down entirely to destroy the hopes that I build by myself.....

The disagreement should be done before I do....Unless I still hadn't build my first path.....
But, until I've completed, I only know I'm right here with only one person alone who can't do anything else.... Who stupidly waiting for the hopes.....

Love and Marriage

2010-06-13T20:07:00.000+01:00

Someday I'd dreamed, how would the life change after a marriage? Instead of the responsibility, is there anything else that can make a lovely couple to have a maximum changes?

I never thought marriage is a must or a real thing that prove to love, I mean, for me, marriage is just a procedure that everyone will wish to experience once when they reach a certain age, especially girls... I used to think marriage is just for those who wants kids, who wants a family...I even used to think that marriage is just something that God creates to make people feel enrich in their rest of life, and also teach people how to love...

I never know how to define "marry" because I never try to understand it...
Until the day you told me the possibility, I ponder it deeply...However, thing never comes easily...I was like....believe it or not....Hence, I get into it but have to forbid myself to be so, entirely.... Because I still never put everything down, I'm still terrified, I still don't believe in fairy tale... But I'm just like, hoping so much that, I can believe that there have a Cinderella's prince or a snow white's man, inconsistency....

Anyway, no matter who is going to be your partner for your marriage, the one who'll be able to stand beside you, who is going to wear a ring on you, must be the one who loves you more than anyone does...That's the simplest basic thing that we do...But! In a realistic point of view, the one who will be able to be your husband, is the one who can afford a family, who will be take seri0us responsibility on this marriage, who loves you as much as loves your family and also, willing to be with you until end of the world.... He deserves to be a husband when only he gives happiness for his family and his wife but not suffering, in terms of financial support and any anything....

However, marriage is a big burden for a couple which bring them to the next level.... I can understand why a married man still can have an affairs even if he knows this is a maleficence, but I never agree that this can disentangle his pressure! WACK~~~
Same as a woman too...I can even more understand why a woman after marriage, her femininity will horribly drop to the bottom line even she knows this will harm the sensation...Too bad...~.~
But, when you figure it deeply about all the reason happened, woman feel no longer a girl anymore, man feel no longer a free man anymore....
Things change, life change, personalities change, unconditionally...The pros and cons, never been proportioned nicely...

Here, I have some article to share...Enjoy reading...

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谢谢你, 勾引我老公！

俗话说的好:
再好的鱼肉吃多了，也还是想尝尝大白菜的味道；再好的老

婆处久了，也还是想知道别的女人的风韵。
所以，如果你下了决心勾引我老公，而我老公也上钩了，我一点也不觉得奇怪。

　　我想感谢你，在许多个寂寞无聊的日子里陪伴着我老公。人真的很奇怪，会莫名其妙地在人群中感到孤独，会无缘无故地在黄昏的时候伤感，哪怕他衣食无忧，且有娇妻爱子相伴左右。孤独与拥有无关，每个人的心中总有一块处女地，任凭外面刮风下雨，都永远无法触摸得到。或许就差那么一点点，或许爱和感受就像病毒一样不断升级，就差那么一点点，你就永远找不到满足的感觉。

　　我知道，如果我温柔，他就会感受不到辣；如果我安静，他就会感受不到酸；如果我风骚，他就感受不到甜；如果我善良，他就感受不到苦。而我不想让他的感受有缺憾，不想让他在没有我的日子里忍受煎熬。

　　人生不能想，一想就流泪。我们有我们每个人的事业，只是为了更好的生存，我们不能天天在一起，我们不能时刻都让对方满意。在异地他乡，能有人陪他，也是我前世修来的福。我只是想让他的生活不痛苦不空白。距离产生的美反而让我们无法分开，他说他愿意在任何一个场合跟任何一个人说，老婆为我做了很多，我永远不会抛弃她。人说爱是自私的，可是爱也是高尚的，爱的最高境界不是占有，如果我爱他，我选择尽一切可能让他感觉幸福。

　　男人经不起诱惑，尤其是美丽女人的诱惑，我老公也是个凡人，经不起。仅美丽女人勾引我老公的过程就会让他的生活充满了色彩。不再那么苦闷。

　　也许他会感觉到对我的伤害，其实只要不以为这是伤害，它就不是伤害。他善意的隐瞒，隐瞒绝对不是欺骗，那就是他不想伤害我。我穷其一生追求的只是他对我的心意，不是任何一种内容和形式。如果你勾引了他，而他发现你就是他一生要找的另一半，我为什么非要横在中间？如果你不是，他终究会回到我的身边。我了解并能容忍他的任何一个致命的弱点，我们一起经历了风风雨雨的见证，有谁能像我一样始终站在他生命最低谷的边缘？

　曾经看过一篇文章，写的特别实在，文章名字叫
《她现在能给你的，都是我十年前给过你的！》。

我正专心的看电视，他突然说：“我们离婚吧”。他很严肃，不象是跟我开玩笑。浮上我脑海的第一个念头是：他肯定抄股亏大了，或者是得了绝症，怕连累我。我坚决的摇头，油然而生一股要跟他共患难的豪情。

　　他的第二句话将我打入地狱：“我爱上别人了，对不起。”
　　“什么时候？”我努力沉住气。
　　“半年了，是旅行认识的，她是导游，很单纯，人又热情。”也许意识到自己赞美的词语用的过多，他刹住了，愧疚的看着我。
　　“有多爱？”“十分爱。”
　　我没有再问下去，问的太细只会让自己伤的更深，不如给自己留点颜面。

　　回忆跟他在一起的日子，我们很幸福。可是，既然人家已经喜新厌旧，我干吗死不放手呢？我长长吐了一口气：“一切就按你的意思办吧。有人能将你这个祸害从我身边领走，我真是感激不尽。”他惊讶的看着我，他知道我并不是一个心胸豁达的女人。

　　“其实我对你也有审美疲劳。”你把我看的轻如鸿毛，就别指望自己还是我心中的泰山。
　　他深感愧疚，决定把家里的一切留给我和孩子。离婚前，他约我一起吃饭，几杯酒下肚，他的话多了起来，他说，他希望得到我的祝福，他还主动说起那个女孩，她朝气蓬勃，跟她在一起，他有被点燃的感觉。想起自己曾经也年轻漂亮，朝气蓬勃，也曾经那样吸引他，我与那个，只是隔了十年的光阴，却被明显贴上了旧爱与新欢的标签。

　　“她很天真，一点小事也能让她感到满足，跟她去购物，抽奖得了一块香皂；带她去吃北京饺子；送她一块20元的电子表，给她买一个土渣儿饼......她都会欣喜若狂。跟她在一起，我很放松，我可以抽烟抽的屋子里一股烟味，我可以玩通宵麻将，跟朋友拼酒......”他陶醉在自己的幸福里，满眼的温柔。

　　而我，像所有的黄脸婆一样，精打细算，过问他每一笔开销，买双袜子都要货比三家。我不许他抽烟，禁止他喝酒，更反对他吆三喝四的赌博。

　　“和她在一起，我感觉心跳加速，干什么都充满力量。”他显然已有几分醉意。

　　我打断他：“从此以后，我不再是你的黄脸婆，不再是你不用支付工资的用人。我可以节省为你熨衣服配领带的时间，来打扮自己；我可以节省下为你买衣物的钱，给自己挑几件拿的出手的时装；我可以不用绞尽脑汁地搜索鱼的N种做法，不用讨好你的胃，想吃饭我就做，不想做饭，我可以带女儿去吃快餐；我可以不再担心你抽烟伤了肺，喝酒伤了肝；我不再为你洗吐的一塌糊涂的被单；不用在你醉了酒，睡在街边某个角落时，一边哭一边满大街的找；我可以不用再操心你老家的亲戚今天谁做寿，明天谁娶媳妇，不用再每个月给你爸妈寄生活费；不用每年跟你坐半天的车，提着大包小包走十多里山路，只为陪你父母吃顿年夜饭.....

　　是啊，离婚，真是太好了！”说完这些，我泪如泉涌，而他则楞楞的看着我，我一直都表现的很冷静，可是，一点酒精就把我的内心出卖了。三十多岁的女人，谁不在乎自己经营多年的婚姻？我又笑起来：“离吧，离了看你得意多久，你十分爱她是吧？她也十分爱你是吧？走到一起后，一起生活几年，看你还会不会见到她就心跳加速，她现在能给你的都是十年前我给过你的，你就折腾去吧！等你折腾够了就会发现，你只是把我们走过的路又重复走了一遍而已。” “你醉了？”他有些紧张的看着我。

　　“我没有天真单纯过吗？我没有年轻美丽过吗？我把你送的一只铜戒指、一本书、一枚书签视若珍宝，冒着严寒为你织手套。我也十分爱过，可是走进婚姻，女人的角色就复杂了，在爱的同时，有了很多责任。他不可能再十分专注的爱一个人，她要从这十分爱中分出一分爱公公婆婆，又要从中分出一分来爱自己的父母，还要从中分一分来爱孩子。十分的爱经过婚姻的洗礼，就只剩下了七分。当另一份十分的爱袭击她的幸福时，她就无以抵挡...”

　　最终，我们没有离婚，他改变了主意。他说我清醒的时候没有醉酒的时候理智，也没有醉酒的时候聪明...」

　　谢谢某人，勾引我老公。
　　谢谢某人，洒脱，解脱。

　　最近忙碌于很多事情，待到静下心回来的时候，我突然觉得，很多人很多事，我不再关注了，不再在乎了...

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"Everyone knows, every efforts you do, is just to create a happy family. Once you've created, please don't destroyed it easily...Because, once you'd destroyed, you gonna do it all over again with double works to create another one..." How many second chances or life you have? Think about it....

Things change accordingly to what you've done...

I still have plenty of thoughts

Our day..

2010-05-13T07:35:00.000+01:00

I'd a very nice day with him yesterday...*wink*
He came along from Penang to pick me up early in the morning, and we simply plan for our whole day... I feel pleased when he's beside me...

We'd our vegetarian lunch at Pulau Tikus, yet we go for "Chou Tian Yang Pet Shop" to look around some cute pets and of course, buy delicious snacks for his Kikko..^.^
Somehow, I always feel pretty excited when buying his Kikko's stuff together with him, but I still haven't find out where the joy come from...Maybe, I love to see the way of he's taking care of his Kikko or maybe, I like the feeling of I've involve in his part of life....Seriously, I don't mind to have Kikko as my pet too...XD

We went to Gurney to collect my money in the evening, by the way, we bought twin seat for our "Robin Hood" movie...hmmm...we just did that before the day in Sunway Carnival for "Iron Man"...teehee~^^...

Stupidly, I always feel so much happy when having movie with him...Because this is a ♥lovely♥ action which like you'll only concentrate on the movie and at the same time, there have an important man for you just stick beside you and hugging on you when you feel cold.... WAH~!!! That's my boy!!!! haha...There have only a man can give me such feeling (which cannot describe by just this simple words), and the feeling that nobody else can give me besides him...^^
(ar~hem..I know I'm narcissism but give me a chance to recall my day with him XD)

After all, we had our dinner at "Green House" where have a super duper tasty, delicious,drooool yummy "Hokkein Mee" there!!! Yeah~ Of course, I have got it! ^^

That's our simple day with a so-casual routine...
And make sure that we have our goodbye kiss before we end ups this day...^0^

♥He is the first man that I heart so much...♥
"Unfortunately, I don't know how much he heart me...But I only know he dotes on me a lots..Besides, I know I have the privilege to walk in his heart...."

Love my dear

The origin us

2010-05-10T11:33:00.000+01:00

*wink~!
Tomorrow my boy is coming to find me in my hometown!!!
teehee~!!!!! We gonna register his company together...
So sweet when the one you love allow you to involve in his part of life...
How sweet is when his beloved one is going to help him in his part of life...
That's even sweetest when a lovely couple work hard for each others to make their future brighter... Whereas the future is for both of us...

I know he got lots of dreams...
Always being a supportive girlfriend, that's the most expensive gift to him...He neither...
Even is just giving him a little helping hand, he will feel satisfy enough...
Because, the simplest thing that he request, is just want me to stay beside him....

I know he really hope that I can be there for him, but he still always give me a chance to do thing that I wanted....Even though he hide it nicely, I will still see the real thinking from him, because I'm living in his heart.... I'm so thankful that he always give me enough freedom to do anything that I like without any unwillingness...

We have actually no much worries on each other because inside our heart, there have always a TRUST...

"Honesty is always around us that's why I don't need his password to look in his real part, he doesn't need mine neither...Because, we're the best origin us when we're together..." Everyone has their own privacy, so we are kind to allow it..

Heart him~...

Just let it be or not to be....

2010-05-08T18:15:00.000+01:00

It's been weird that I seldom blog for happy thing, but only blog for something that influence my thinking, something make me blue...

Yes...My blog is the only thing that can express my feeling by using words, shout out everything over here to calm me down when there have no one understand me... That's the only thing I can do, that's why my blog only consists of sadness...No matter how, I just wanna find a way, to make me feel better..even it's just a little, I'll do it...

I don't know why I feel so bad on this even I know he takes dance as important thing...Since I'm a dancer, I can totally understand this....But, I know there have other reason behind that...It could be a pressure, it could be an unwillingness...I don't know which one more than either one of it... Whatever it is, I just want to appreciate everything around me especially you before everything has changed...

For me, I know there have something need to be sacrificed no matter how much you wanted to do something.... Unless, there have something you think it is not worth for you to do.... I just simply not to force you, but, if you really wanted to reject me at the first, please don't give me any expectation, or simply say "consideration"...I don't like disappointment, I don't like rejection when I thought there will have a hope...

I never give pressure to you even I'm hoping so so much that you can be there.....
Because I know, just a word, can change everything, but I know, you hold your promise all the time....That's why I didn't tell you how much my hope is...How much I can see you to be there...

You know, the truth that you keep, I always know...
That's the reason why I feel pain...

"when you feel annoyed, that's the weakest part that you showed"

I'm thinking, should I forget it? To act there have nothing happened

Appreciate you and me

2010-05-02T18:37:00.000+01:00

The reason I blog today is because I've read someone's blog (http://gigikissu.blogspot.com) and really touch my heart.. Her bf was death....She took down every single moments of her and her bf...She wrote down the feeling that she want to express hardly.... I know, it's hard to get through all this....But she did it...she's strong, she's optimistic....She's the one who knows life...
Life goes on....

Seriously, after reading her blog, I've got a heavy impact...
She has assured the real love for me about-->
"no matter how far the distance is between a couple, the believe of love, the sincerity to each other, will make them closer... "Even if I'm a real realism, but still, I realize love..

I always worry about the day when I leave him, but I know that is a must for me...I don't mean to be selfish or realistic, but the opportunity of leaving cannot be waited...I choose to leave because I've been dreamed for years...Because I believe your love to me and mine neither...Because I know both of us will be waiting for each other.... At least, the chance of being together are still exist for both of us... There have always a "TRUST" to continue our journey...

As everyone knows, appreciate people around you, that's always the best thing to be done and believe...

When we hold our love tightly, love will not escape easily...
Our hard work, never betray us...
My real love, never lie to you...
And your love to me, I tattoo in my heart...

It's a test for our love

Coming soon..

2010-03-04T07:36:00.000Z

wow~ I'd been expecting for the day, actually... I mean, have a photo-shooting with my friends!
It was definitely FUN!
The photographer is my best classmates--> shi chek!
On top of a helper --> Steven Ngan (Da Bing)
He always the laughter and the poser instructor!!! XD

A super hectic weather today, but we enjoyed the process and having fun together!
We went to several places to take different kind of styles that the photographer requested...

dah~ no more crapping here...I've uploaded some pictures of photo-shooting backstage that taken by Steven ~

Can't wait to see the complete photos!!!
^^
A tiring day but F-U-N

Stay tuned...

Heart bleeding

2010-02-21T06:37:00.000Z

I'd already told you what I wish, what I want...You'd never tell all the story, just let me jump to the conclusion...Yet, put all the blame on me~

You said, don't ask you turn back once it has already passed by...So, I don't....
I'd trying to stop your temper, to be silent, to not say anything...

You blow my stack, yell on me...That's cutting my heart...
I would never never never let someone yell on me like that...
I seriously hate people simply piss my ass off with a shouting like this....

Be patience, I did...not to worse off anything with my silence...
I know you're stubborn, who never apologized first...
That's why I remain silent...
That's why I let you go...
Because I will never let you have the chance to yell on me again!

But this time,
your action is just to a fault...

you again,
disappointed me

H.A.T.E.U

2010-02-03T05:16:00.000Z

I actually feel disappointing when you said you're not free on valentine's day... Leaving me alone spaced out in my own thoughts, ON VALENTINE?!!!
You know there have actually no one beside me on the day, and the time, I only have you...

I hate you, seriously...

"When she knows how to smile, that's because she'd get hurt before..."
"When she know what is touched, that's because her tears drop before...."
"When she know how to hate, that's because she has fallen in love...."

When I decided to get mad on you, but still never ceases to love you...

My 20th

2010-01-15T06:02:00.000Z

Goooossshhh~!! I'm now with the age start with 2!!!
Alright, I know age cannot lie as I've grown up with no longer a teen...
Time, words and opportunity, this 3 thing that gone - will never come back...
Appreciate- is only what we can do...
Well prepared and proper planning are always the tools to ready for the incoming opportunity and success...

For sure, I've made wishes for the best evolution for myself in the 20th...
Doing thing with a good reason that can result a good future are always the best thing ever...Wishes can be done easily but it doesn't mean it can be achieved with a blank hand...Day-dreaming are always awfully stupid~!!!

Thus, I make a wish not to be the stupid-dumb-ass...XD

One of my birthday wish had come true on the exactly day...Which is celebrated my birthday with my love one...
Despite of not having a blast one, I was feeling touch enough to have such a warm birthday...
Nah~ I still have to remain the blast one for my 21 birthday!!! hahahaha..

My birthday was clearly depicted on these photos...

My dearest dancing's friends!

Present from my dear^^

Dinner in Little Cottage..

Birthday Wishes

2010-01-13T09:04:00.000Z

I know I have a lot of wishes that currently cannot be achieved, yet I always hope that there have a miracle to make it comes true...I put all my expectation on you because you're the only one who I believe... I've been almost N years never truly celebrated my birthday with an unforgettable memories... That's why I expect so high on my 20th birthday because this time, I have you...

I expect you to read my mind, so that you know what kind of birthday I want to be...
I expect you to know what kind of birthday cake I wish to have...
I expect you to plan something special without my knowledge....
Every expectations that I made on you, is just my point-of-view...
I know, it's hard for you to figure it out...

Realistic I always be,I know it's ridiculous, but I know how to be optimistic and learn satisfactory...

Nothing is always that perfect but at least not disappointments...
I don't request luxury even if I really hope to get it...
But, what I want would be a good, romantic environment with only you and me...
I don't request to have a branded even if I'm so keen on it...
But, at least something can replace it even if it is just a cake...

The first time ever that I'm feeling that nervous for the coming day of tomorrow...
Perhaps, you catch my point...

Forgive and Forget

2009-12-29T03:47:00.000Z

In evidence, every couple does have conflicts…Whereas, that might be a good way to get better understanding on each other… No matter how worst the condition is, forgive and forget are always the way to hold us tightly…

I know my fault, I apologized, I try to fix it up carefully as I used to be termagancy yet I’ve changed unconditionally because of you… This is the first time ever that I was trying so hard to cheer up a man, to be so femininity to him; I wasn’t that girl before… But to you, I know I couldn’t be the previous me anymore, as I know patience is a plaster to all sores… I don’t expect everything will be fine that immediately since that was my fault who turned this up, but I’d try my very best and which was the very best ever to hold you tight…

However, my effort didn’t work well or should say, apologize is no longer effective anymore… I turn my back and walk away because I was tired, whenever I done something that did not change anything… I need a silent space to blank my mind, to think who I am, to think what else I can do, to think how to make thing better, to think why I always would be the destroyer…

Whatever I did, whatever I try to do, I just hold one thought, that's LOVE…

I’ve seen the other side of mine that I can’t believe myself to be the one who never appeared in my life until I realized our love…. Indeed, I’m being the person that I never been in my whole life, so strange for me, yet so familiar…That’s me….That’s the one who love you so much and started to hate myself who usually done something wrong, but still, love my another side that being loved by you…

Apologize to gain forgiveness….

Forgive because of love…

Forget to show the impotency of love…

My Christmas

2009-12-26T08:07:00.000Z

First of all, I would like to shout out to everyone
MERRY CHRISTMAS...
(Because I missed the chance to yell it out on time!!!)

Well, every girls wish to have a great, peaceful, romantic Christmas Eve with their loves one,
so do I... I prepared myself early after my class...(When a girl pay much effort on making up herself nicely, this simple means how much she'd care the date..)

Since I never truly celebrate a very nice Christmas before (especially with the loves one), I was paying so much expectations on this time X'mas Eve...

I expected him to bring me to somewhere to have a fantastic yet romantic dinner..
I expected him to plan something special or something that can surprise me on the Eve...
I expected both of us can have a very unforgettable countdown day even if only he and I...
(As you know, how much I'd like those parties!)
Expectation always just like a sweet dreams.. It makes you feel so real but its actually did not happen...
I was so excited to see him, but he was in serious sick...
We went out to have dinner, but end up with a little conflict yet cover it up with the "nothing-happen" situation...

Honestly, I was in tempered that time but I can truly understand the situation...
Sometimes, a lot of thing cannot be spoken by words as I myself don't even know what I should do...
Every single thoughts running around my minds, I can clearly read them but I couldn't open my voice and speak them out... I almost burst my tears that time but I was trying so hard to control myself, if not, tears would ruin my make up...T.T

Finally, we decided where to go..
But, I really can't enjoy myself without you...
Arrhh~~~...I don't know what to do that time....I was panic, I was really drawing a blank...What I could do for you is just staying beside you....
And end up, we had porridge together...
That's my Christmas Eve!!

I know you'd use your fragile energy to hug me and give me a Christmas kiss...
I've been touched blissfully...

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The next day, 25th of Dec 2009..
We'd a one day Penang trip...
T.T
What a waste...

I don't care, you must return me my Christmas Eve!

Sorry

2009-12-16T08:23:00.000Z

I know i was wrong...I messed up the thing...When I try to fix it up, it doesn't work because it was too late... I didn't apologize because I know there is no longer useful... I try to calm your emotion, but the words you spoke had cut my heart...
I dropped my tears silently, because I don't want to let you feel that I was annoying...

I know I'm imperfect for u, the marks had deducted...That's a huge mistakes that I ever did... My personality in your mind have been decreased seriously...Besides apologize, I don't know what to do instead...

I hate myself, hate the one who always mess thing up even when I know thing shouldn't be like that... I hate my tears, when I know tears don't mean anything...

I hope I can be somebody else, to have a big changes of myself..I rather become another person...To gain back the 50 marks...

I hope your knife can straightly cut off my heart, cut it deadly, so that I don't have any feel on it anymore....Yet, I'm dead to see and feel anything....

Lost my way

2009-11-21T15:00:00.000Z

It's my pleasure that I lose something and I get something else instead...

God is fair enough,
"He gave you something that you'd desired for years,and also took away the thing from you that had already be with you for years..."
People will only realize,
When the time you received something, that's the time you'll lose something...
Thing will probably comes and goes...As life goes on...

For love ---
I've lost to be the past "me" because I know how bad I was before the moment when you kissed me... I realize it when I was sleeping alone, I know I need your shoulder to lie on... I don't mean that I'm good enough for now, I just know something have changed after you've entered my heart... You're the reason that I start all over again to know the real me...

For friendship ---
It used to be so familiar to me, so close and simple... But,I've lost in my friendship definition...I've lost something that had already accompanied me for years, but I know beautiful moment will fly as a butterfly... I couldn't find the soul of being a real friend anymore...I know, I've changed after making decision as I said, I mean it...
The so-called "friendship forever", you know, I know...

For Future ---
But somehow, I'm too conscious on what I want and I've forgotten the thing happen around me...I don't know what I would be change when I need to get something for my future and let something goes just for the future...
I'm frustrated when I see a stranger of me in the future who may be completely an evil or angel neither...

For Maggie ---
Inside of her own incredible world, she keeps everything that she learn everyday... Her realistic is her symbol but besides that, there have actually more than that which she herself hasn't been figured out yet... Being a realism, is her only way to keep herself conscious on finding her own way... She lost when she let something go, but then she lock herself in a tiny room to think which door should her open to continue her new journey...

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"I've lost but I never forget the way to enter your heart..."

Wherever I go, my soul would be with you...

Kikko

2009-11-15T12:45:00.000Z

The first time I meet Kikko today...
The first time I help a puppy take bath ( I was actually standing there, XD)...
The first time I see him, taking care of her puppy, Kikko...His action had truly touched my heart...
The first time I see him scold Kikko, he seems like scolding a baby, it's warm...

I feel warm and blissful when looking his action on how he treat his puppy... It makes me feel like, he is a real good daddy... The way he talked to Kikko, the way he clean up Kikko, they way he played with Kikko, I can feel his love and kindness thoroughly. I like to see him taking care on Kikko... It's really warm my heart....

Kikko was so afraid when seeing her daddy leave her alone... I might too strange to her yet, that's why she scared... She cried and I almost shed my tears for her frustration. I kept on comforting her but it was useless, I yelled to her daddy, asking him to come out as fast as possible....

Through out the day, I can feel even deeply on my love to him... I can't stop thinking of him even if he is just beside me....

...Part of my life...

Thanks

2009-11-11T05:37:00.000Z

The day will come, as the fact is already started two months ago.... I can see through your words that you actually do still care on it even though you'd given up, obviously...

What's the actual feeling of yours? Sad? Disappointed? Numb? or Regret?
I don't know if the words are truly sincere from your heart, or just expressing it to stable your emotion....I know I shouldn't care about that since it's no longer my concern, but I used to be your good listener and his neither... Yet, and finally, thing turns up unexpectedly... I know you will be shocked when knowing the truth that has already happened so sudden... The unexpected thing can simply change just a blink which is so unconditional...
"When something was belong to you on the last second, doesn't mean it will not belong to others at the next second..."In fact, was you the one who loosen your hand to let it go...

Frankly, I can feel it deeply about your true feeling through your action and words...Wishes from your heart, I would like to give hundred of thankful.
But somehow, it's actually impact my emotion tho~ As I know the day on facing this problem will come, and it's really make me feel so insecure...I don't mean to not believe in anyone else, just the behavior of myself, the lack of confidence, the terror of losing someone who I just started to let him enter my heart....
But I know consciously that LOVE is just between he and I...

Anyhow, the decision you made, had given us a big changes...

~He and I know that~

It's actually NOTHING!!!

2009-10-25T14:51:00.000Z

As I've been two weeks ago never update my blog...It means that there have actually nothing special happened to me... I wonder if there have nothing to blog, it's actually better because it simply means that nothing sad or bad happened towards me... When people are sad or heart broken, blogging will always the best company... Express everything out that you've already hidden for a while or even for years over here, yet you'll absolutely relief....

Luckily, I blog for nothing....
The daily routines are still the same, he and I are also the same that we'll meet up after his work... I seldom hang out because I only realised the fun of staying in my own comfortable room~ XD

Once a few times, people will wonder why he will forget our important day about this or that.... Sometimes, we'll blame on each other about why he cannot blah blah blah... Even if he had actually did everything for you, but you still don't satisfy and keep on nagging at this and that... But, after you consider deeply, you'll find out that they actually do anything for any reason to make you happy... They just wanted to see your sweet smile, yes, it's that easy...
So, always hang up a sweet smile on your face, to make him feel secure and happy too...

"Life isn't a fairy tale, happy ending are few and far between. Realistic world are always surrounding us but who knows sometimes
Love can still spring in the most unlikely places..."

Until now, I actually still couldn't believe, he's with me...
The truth will never running away from me...
And the truth of us...
He is with me....

I've let you go...

2009-10-15T12:01:00.000+01:00

Every time when I mention it, my tears wouldn't be in my control anymore...
I cried because the definition of friendship has been changed... Because disappointment came around when I read every one of your words...Because my heart had broken which actually nothing fault between us....

I've nothing much to say anymore or should say, I have nothing else to say at all... I flash back the moment we've been together for the 3 and a half years ago, I felt so secure to have you be my side...But now, things have been changed... I can't listen to your heart anymore, and you're blinded to look at me...

It just so disappointed...
And my heart had been cooled...

Friend is not for sharing, friend is part of our living purpose...Friend is to be appreciated...
That's my philosophy of true friend but now, it only turns into good friend...
I've always remember every words that you said to me...Never ever forget one word from yours... However, holding tight on this philosophy has no longer be needed anymore, I guess...

I shed my tears because I've let you go...

I need you but I know you don't need me anymore...

True Friend

2009-10-14T09:06:00.000+01:00

I don't know what to say anymore for us... Sometimes, explanation has already blacken... I don't mean that but you think it is... Psychological...It's so funny... Thing has changed unexpectedly and suddenly...And I finally know, when a girl doesn't know anything about the fact, it's actually better... I used to posted whether a girl doesn't know the ugly truth, is that call lucky or stupid...
And still, I can't find the answer because everyone got their different point of view...

I might be too tough on handling my own philosophy but sometimes this is just what I heard and I just telling the truth that you should know, as you kept on asking me to say it now with the rejection on my face to face telling request... I told and yet, saying that I'm putting on fire which the thing is already exist before I know...

I burst my tears and think even more clearly the whole night... Time can heal everything but time cannot forgone what had been happened yesterday for our friendship...It was hurt...Truly hurt...I started to confused, I'd taken wrong definition on friendship... It's been too heavy for me to defined and now I know, it actually doesn't need that over concern...Even you concern about your friend, better act you don't know anything...Because, concern will unconditionally turn into an issue...

I came towards for you not the one you love...I felt so unworthy for you who ever do anything for your love one and finally get this kind of threaten...I never forget what you had told me in my room, your words that you speak it out to me, I've never taken it for granted... Never let the love one to influence us...And so, I only dare to talk to you as I firstly decided not to tell to avoid the case like before...But finally, it was wrong...

Girls ask me about you...Because people also treat you as their friend...They don't believe on something, and tell me... Maybe our concern is no longer be needed by you....Or you just don't love to hear it...I wonder if I didn't know all of this like other girls, I think it could be better...

"Your sincere concern sometimes becomes a fault and yet, you will be the stupid, who firstly from a good one turn into the bad one...And I decide, not to be the stupid one anymore..."

Maybe it's time for us to think on each other and even our own self if we're still being that understanding...My sincerity in this friendship is no longer been appreciated by you anymore since your trust on me has been declined..

Explanation has become a futile

Perhaps, friendship can be perpetuated

Do you remember the first time you fall in love with him?

2009-10-02T09:10:00.000+01:00

I used to ask myself whether I still remember the first time that fall in love with someone...
I used to struggle in the same question which is "what love actually is"....
I used to be not that serious in a relationship with those guys, then broke up with them with no tears...
I used to tell myself a girl doesn't need love if she is independent enough...
I used to not believe in true love...

But here are all the "used to be"...

Sometimes you'll never know you're already unconditionally falling in love with him...
Sometimes you don't even remember when is the time that your heart started to beat for him..
Sometimes you'll never know love is actually simple when both of your hearts are linked...
Sometimes you'll just feel simply good when he is beside you, watching him to sleep tight...

Sometimes, we don't need to turn back the clock and do it all again the -first love, first kiss,first drink...But, this time, we just need to do it right...From now onwards, we just need to set out to right the wrongs of the past, there's just one niggling doubt... No one knows if life can ever be better because better life has being hold by your own...

"I don't remember the first time
when I fall in love with him
because now the fact of loving him is already existed..." I've found a safe place to rest with...I've keep your heart in mine...

If there have a relationship with true love,
any problem will not be a problem anymore...

I don't remember the first time that I fall in love with you, but I wouldn't forget that I'm living in your heart...

Thing is actually better

2009-09-19T02:39:00.000+01:00

The 1st day…

I’m still not sure what the feeling is but I’m pretty sure that we gotta make it work…
Similarly, my heartbeat was still jumping abnormal since this early in the morning… And, I am totally drawing a blank on how we’re going to face each other when we meet…I just don’t know what to do~~~blah blah blah!!! Because we used to be friend and just a night past, it's hard for us to change our action180 degree...
It's kinda awkward...
Be naturally is the best I guess… Naaaaah~~~

Sometimes, we just don’t jump to the conclusion too fast because you’ll never know what would happen mentally and break the chain that you always thought it should be in a very few seconds…

Sometimes, in the physical world, it might just look so "thing-should-be-like-this" always but, our mental is hard to control especially in LOVE stuff…Because the feel will always change until it find the right place to rest…
Yet, you’ll realized, the truth feeling will never lie~

Sometimes, thing will never goes well like what you've thought, but it maybe goes even better!!

If it is possible, just make it happen~

We'll never let the time pass with nothing!!

You make a change for me...

Heart Beating

2009-09-18T13:31:00.000+01:00

Phew….my heart is still beating that fast…
I just couldn’t expect thing will be happened on this time…
He is always a good guy in my heart and I never expect the good guy is beside me…
I never expect the good guy actually appeared for few months ago…
A lot of thing, are never in my prediction.
And now, it’s happened…
I really thought we’re just friend at the beginning…

Who knows there have actually good thing exist, who knows the better thing maybe happened in the next second…

ARRRRHHHH I’m still in a very nervous status!!!!!!!

I know love from your eyes..

Dare not or Don't?

2009-09-14T23:18:00.000+01:00

I thought I would be in a very good sleep this morning, but I suddenly become so conscious to think what's happening to me... Then, I can't fell asleep anymore.
I read his blog yesterday, I wonder how this would be... The differences between a pair of friend and lover... The dare not to love or don't love question, he wrote... I don't know who he was writing but the symptoms are so alike...
I am always surrounding in this circle, drawing a blank on don't love or dare not to love...

I read his blog again this morning, recall the things happen in these few weeks ago, it was great and simple... Isn't it? We don't make it complicated, we don't think too much... But, it doesn't seem like what we always done... The Feeling, I don't know how to describe, and so do you, we have no clue...

I always tell myself, I have a long long journey to go, I have various of people I need to know, I have plenty of dreams to accomplish... I plan for everything... My future, my studies, my money, my everything include I don't love... But still, I miss out something... I thought friends around me will always be that simple to hang out and having fun together... In fact, it doesn't seem like this...I miss out something, carelessly...

Yes, we've thinked too much...everything is just an imagination.... Everything is just for us to escape from being lonely, and to find someone to be our partner...
It is all about loneliness which has make us lost...

Like usual, I always tell myself, I don't love because I don't know what it is...

When I know what love actually is, it never be that beautiful anymore...

When I don't know what love actually is, it always looks like a mystery and you'll never know when you will fall for it...

When I know what love actually is, it draws me like a stupid...

When I don't know what love actually is, it simply because I never dare to step on it...

Some little thing happened yesterday, I thought the man is sincere to his gf, but he doesn't know the love's distriction... Eventhough it was not a fault, it might cause serious sadness...
It's no longer the first time anymore, I see the ugly truth agaaaiiiin!!!
Sometimes,
I wonder if a girl doesn't know the truth,
Is this call lucky?
or stupid?

"When I CLEARLY know what love actually is, it becomes a terror..."

If it is possible, let's make it happen

Stop the old one, and let the new one comes toward you~

2009-09-11T10:05:00.000+01:00

Initially, everything go well in these few weeks. In spite of the exam period, my daily routines still have done as usual. Nevertheless, when sometimes I couldn’t focus on my revision, a lot of minds would suddenly pop up.

I’ve made my decision since my previous article to stop everything that I felt it is not suppose to be continued. And my decision was strong because at the same time, my mind has totally changed because I found out something that important for our entire life. My friend was right, I should stop this to let the new things come toward me.

Even though we’ve been gone through this, it doesn’t mean we gonna finish it. It is not necessary to be completed due to the pointless result that both of us know clearly.

When the other party doesn’t have the intention to stop it, I will stop it, because enough is never quit enough. It’s even worst if we don’t know “what’s enough”.

Well, things around me have been changed, I mean, I step in a different environment and start to view the different point. Everything which has been happened and over, it could make a change for us. "No matter the change is physically or mentally, I’m still holding my philosophies, tightly and gracefully."

When decision has made, I mean it.

Recently, I’ve received one video from my friend which I’ve uploaded on my Facebook as well. It is full of meaning with “everyone has their own love story which directed by themselves”. Story begins with how you treat people as whether in a good attitude or bad one. Story begins with how you handle your relationship and how you think love as.

And of course, I’ve truly considered what my character is in the love story. Then, I finally realized it had never been so serious since I started to live in the new environment last time. But now, it had past.

In fact, everything is just a lesson or a procedure for me to grow up and see through the real thing in the real world.

"I opened up my heart, see through the one who really live in, yet, a smile hang up on my face. I digest everything that stored in my mind, and read through the real me again, then I finally know, thing should be like this."

My first new ring might be a good start.

The Changing

2009-09-06T11:18:00.000+01:00

During the exam period, I admitted that I didn’t really pay lot of efforts on it. It doesn’t seem like the same motivation that I had for the last semester. I don’t know why my motivation has gone and study for meaningless.
I would like to blog here to express myself tho’, express my boringness on reading “nothing special” subject, memorizing those “useless for your future” stuff.

Anyhow, the main purpose is to post my actual thinking for today…
Something happened today as usual, yet I realized that I’m sick on it aaagggaaaiiinn. My satisfaction has been declined and I can’t feel any passion on it anymore. I didn’t enjoy it at all as what I had done before. It was totally different feeling compare to last time that I did!!
"It seems lack of “something”, and the “thing” is actually didn’t exist since we started this."
At the beginning, I didn’t care about “it” because people always search for excitements. But now, I suddenly feel that “it” has become an essential on doing this.
Without “it”, the game is boring.
Without “it”, the game is meaningless.
Without “it”, the game is still a GAME.

Or should say something obvious, my playfulness has gone, I’m sick and bored on playing this, is it a time for me to find a stable life with a stable "him"? WOW~~ Sounds funny anyway~ LOL.

Anyhow, I don’t really think of it but the situation might look slightly alike, due to the incident that I dreamt for these several nights… The dreams were so real but in real life, it just too impossible. "The dreams' story weren’t same every time but the message to be delivered is obviously same. "
I guess, there would have some clues in the dream. It was a good dream honestly, but it just looks too unbelievable. I don’t know why, I just feel it is so impossible to be happened. Therefore,
I don’t give any expectation on it because I’ve locked my heart.
Stop entering in those relationship stuffs,
because I don’t know when I can learn how to love,
and
I don’t know when I can walk out the terror from being hurt.

I can only realize LOVE, if someday my love has been aroused.

Everything might have a change~

You're GAME OVER

2009-08-25T21:14:00.000+01:00

Well well well, I've just finished up our conversation....oooppsss~~~ I end this up???!!!
Hell no!!!
We never step forward to improve our relationship after since you end up our relationship last time with the reason "not enough time"~~God pls, I can't feel your passion at all and even mine!!
I think you would never expected I could be so cold-blooded that sudden huh... hmm...
Simply because I wanna play more to reach my satisfaction before you reach yours...

Since you always wear your mask when you WERE together with me, I might as well hide my real personality too...dude..~
Since you created this game, let's play!

Who cares about the love.... You don't even take it seriously why should I do neither?
Really a big age gap between us huh...Your point of view really doesn't same as mine~!

Mummmyyyy.....oh sweetheart, calling that freaking sweeeeet to me huh...
AWWW man~~ Do you think I always be that kind on doing what you request for?
Hey, I need to have fun tho but it's not come from yours~ because I'm bored enough~~ *YAWN*

Who are u ?
A pass-by-ex-"lover"..
now, it's GAME OVER~
Thanks for giving me such a good moment.. You grow me up man~!!!
Thanks "daddy"~!!!

Be smart~

City Bayview Performance

2009-08-23T10:30:00.000+01:00

hmmm...I seldom post my dancing life in my bloggie actually because it's a daily routine...
But this time it could be a little bit different..

In this article, there have no party, no pretty dress, no high heels and blah blah blah...

nah~~~ no craping here...just straight to the point...

Fresh Beat Academy

Terrence, nice post!

Vera & Maggie

RED & WHITE

Awwwww!!!!! Here's the "famous" celebrities!!

The muscle man and the little ladies~~!!

Tall VS. Short

Life goes on and luckily, I found myself with them...No pressure but only laughters exist...

I love being with all of you..

The fact of Guys & Girls in the city

2009-08-21T09:47:00.000+01:00

Guys:

9 out of 10 guys are the same...They like to find girls when they're bored, when they're lonely, when they need girls....

I'll never say those girls who willing to accompany you guys are STUPID, but unfortunately, what I would say is...Girls need guys to have fun too!!~

~Don't forget, the fact is always ugly! ~

Guys always thought that they're the animal who can control girl's smartness, but indirectly, guys' stupidness might more than girls' tho~! As everyone can see, guys like to have affairs with another girl even if they have their loyal beloved one,but... advise to those guys who have fun at outside, don't treat girls as just only your toy, they even smarter than you

Do you thought girls will only willing to do anything that you asked for without any benefit?!

Don't be naive anymore~LOL..

Guys will never expected girls are actually treaten boys as their toys too...

"Guy want to have fun, doesn't mean girl will never play a fool on you!"

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Girls:
9 out of 10 girls are the same...They always live in sweet talks from guys... Girls always thought guys give sweet talks to them is because they're pretty or they're being loved...
However, sorry to tell that,
Guys are actually want to taste on girls and will be back when only they miss the enjoyable flirting moment... Or maaayyyybe that girl is just look too fuckable~~
Girls like to control their man and make sure that they're home punctually,
do you think they'll never have an affairs with other girls outsite when you restrict them?!
Don't be naive anymore~ LOL
Girls will never expected their action in controlling their man will indirectly make the thing worse off!!
Besides,
Girls only hope boys to be sincere to them, but girls like to flirt with other guys in fact~
Because girls' natural preferable is listening to the sweet talks...
So
"don't expect your man to be a loyal boyfriend to you, if you don't even give a fuck to him but to others!"

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Guys and girls in the city,
combine together to achieve what they want,
It's not actually love exist, but it's actually a deal,
guys wish to have what they want, and girls neither!!
She wants him to be like that, he wants her to be like this...
Isn't that a deal?
A deal with full of excitement, which can reach both wants...
No doubt...Here's the realist world...
Don't blame on any one of the party that they don't give sincerity to you, somehow, is you yourself who don't do your responsibility...

Guys, don't think girls as a stupid;
Girls, don't think guys are the bad one...

Because, sometimes both of these gender's has unconditionally exchange but they just didn't noticed that...
Which means....

"Guys is actually the stupid when they thought they're smarter than girls, and girls is absolute the bad biatch when they thought they're pretty good compare with guys!!"

So, don't blame anyone, because both guys and girls are actually the same species~
Since the natural human being is----> SELFISH & EGOISTIC

P/S:(Article above is based on my own opinion without pointing specific person...)

Learn to say "NO"

2009-08-07T16:59:00.000+01:00

"People tend to do something that they think it is just alright, but it's actually wrong and definitely, they themselves know about their fault..." Yes, I know about it...

Things around, always remind me " you should stop all of this, you don't deserve these kind of conditions..." Yea...I know...I should deserve better instead of doing such "temporary have fun" things and get nothing at all..Listen up, it's nothing benefit me at all~!

Unfortunately, I don't know how to keep it back anymore...My playfulness has betrayed me until I can't find a way to stop it...I consciously know, we couldn't turn all of this back...Lies, insincere are always out there between us...
"I enjoyed the so-called "wrong" moment, yet feel bad on my enjoyable..."
How sad it is on being such a person like me!! Isn't that funny huh??!!

Everytime I tell myself, don't do the same wrongdoings again, eventhough it doesn't hurt me, it might be in someday. I myself don't even know why I am doing these...Imagine the worst thing happen to me if I still never learn how to say "NO", I clearly understand how life will be going on to me...

I can live alone without anyone no matter how bad the condition is, I really did before and now, I'm living so too...But, "my strength on being a good person seems to be faded away..."Should say, I've chosen to be the bad one...
I broke my promise, and still standing at the same point, never step forward, never learn how to say "NO" to the wrongdoings...

These can be the lonely days, and it's hard to know who's on my side most of the time...Friends around me are always so supportive, but sometimes it just couldn't be satisfied...
Because I never learn how to say "NO" to the incoming fun wrongdoings.

Is there anybody else to make a change for me? Hopefully, there has a place for me to be a good one, to have a stable life, to live and share happiness with someone I love... The one I love, is still staying far far away from me...And since I step in my current life, I do everything just to achieve my dreams, and so, I forget to see those people around me...I'm just blind on seeing people around me because in my eyes, there has only money, life styles, success exist...
"Yes, the realistic of me still never been changed and it seems getting worst until I don't know how to say 'NO' to them..."

Enjoy my wrongdoings, so I only get the wrong thing...
Since when I can learn how to say "NO" to the wrongdoings, to get a good thing I've ever dream for?? Since when....

Home Alone

2009-08-01T09:29:00.000+01:00

Mummy and Daddy are having a date at Genting and so, the little poor girl has to stay alone in home....YAWN~ I want party~!!!!!T.T..

I'm bored here but there have actually a lot of assignments are waiting on me~! LOLxx.... hmmmm...That' s why, I try to control myself very well to prevent not to go any event or party tonight~! Yes~!! GOING OUT IS PROHIBITED!!! aaarrrhhhhggggg~~ HELP~!!!!!

I gotta do my web page design assignments and my business communication presentation which can simply choose any title that we like~...WHOOOHOOO...By the way, I'm wondering what interesting and suitable title should I choose to get the attention from my lecturer??? hmmmm...Any idea??

I've got lot of thing to do in my wish list currently...but they seem couldn't be complete yet..it's all about financial problem should say... gosshhh~~!!!!

1stly, I gotta dye my hair!

2nd, I want new dress since I've been a while never restock my closet...

3rd, give me more time so that I can go my facial treatment!!!

4th, choreograph a new dance for DISASTER.

5th, cool high heel searching is on da way!!!

and blah blah blah~

What else? This coming Monday I might have an interview to get a part time promoter job... Honestly, it is not an emergency job needed for me, but it's just....FOR FUN!! haha..

Maybe it's a good chance for me to know same hot guy? XD haha...sounds so biatch huh!~

Anyway, it's better for me to earn extra income so that I can buy extra dress to satisfy my fulfillment~!! HIAK HIAK!! And of course, know some hot guys!!! hahahahaha...

Hey~Say cheers to my assignments~!! XD

Randomly~

2009-07-29T07:05:00.000+01:00

It's been a while I never update my blog, but hey!!! ladies and gentlemen, I'm here again!!! LOL

There have nothing special happened on me which my life still goes on with full of inspirations...lol...That's why, there have no updated post in my bloggie...It might be a good thing for me, it just lack of a lil' rumors around me... ( At least it is not full of sorrow!!)
That's even better, isn't it? hehe

I've posted an article on the previous post which was talking about LOVE between my friends...Regarding to their LOVE story, I notice that I'm just so lucky although I know I am lonely sometimes...Not frequently as well~! At least, I live happily in the single status, have fun on every bits of my current life...I mean it as I've the remain time to do whatever I like which not anybody can enjoy it tho~!

But I always would be the listener to one of my friends after they decided to only be FRIEND...And this was the 1st time I saw a guy crying in front of me, I was shocked but at least, I can accompany him...Whereby, things would be over, tears would dry as your love will getting less and lesser on her...I guess, this could be a good decision for both of them...
However, I've got a "not-so-good" feeling, seems like their story will not simply end just like this!! Sometimes, our thoughts just too subjective I guess....

During the weeks, I'm absolutely too freedom since I'm fully enjoying my single life now...And I'm unconditionally relax myself with no pressures and no worries! chillax here~! ^^V

Everything will be ok if you've found your own way to cheer~!

A sudden feel

2009-07-06T10:53:00.000+01:00

Just done my revision for the test on tomorrow… I'm not happy for these few days even though there have nothing bad happened to me…

After having a call with one of my friend, I noticed that LOVE is actually incredible~

My friend, he loves a girl who has already has a boyfriend. It’s all about timing; they don’t meet the right point when they fall in love with each other… It sounds so sad when I heard that as I know love is actually unpredictable… They lack of the R-I-G-H-T time or maybe the fate??… The girl does love him but it can’t be at this moment… What else can both of them do?

He can either choose to wait or step backward to let her go…She can either choose to maintain the current relationship or start a brand new one…It is so dilemma!!!

I’m moody for both of them, a lot of feels suddenly crash on me~ I can’t even give them a hand because that’s a relationship stuff~ What I can do as a friend is be their listener, support their decision and comfort them…

Due to their case, I suddenly realized lot of things…When he loves her truly; he will do anything to make her happy without thinking on his happiness… But, no matter how much a man can sacrifice for you, he will tired one day and think to give up so that he can breathe better… A “wait” can be a short-term or long-term, just depends on how you gonna invest your love on him/her...So don't blame on him, if he decide not to wait for you..Sometimes, you just give him too much fatigues...

When someone forgets what the so-called LOVE is, it probably means that he/she doesn’t love someone truly or his/her heart already numb on leaving a place for love…

As I do, I’ve forgotten how the LOVE feeling is…

Because there have actually no one inside my heart during the years…

Love is not a necessity, love is a passion… It should be work together to complete a LOVE… "Sometimes fate just can’t stop meddling but sometimes fate doesn’t even across him and her…"

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~Appreciate your LOVE…~

At least you’ve been placed in someone’s heart; at least your heart is being lived by someone…

Sometimes be alone could be even better~

Lock M.A.N & DISASTER Night

2009-06-30T12:00:00.000+01:00

Here we go, Lock Man & Disaster are in da house!!!!!

We decided to have a so-called party at Gurney Hotel Fusion Restaurant...
It wasn't a special event but it simply means a lot of things...
The party is created especially for Soo (bboy fire) who has teach us dancing and bring us a lot of fun~! We've won some competitions, all because of we have a good choreographer (Soo)!!
We've shown our appreciation by doing this party for him~ Using the prize that we won to make this simple but awesome party~

After having a great buffet, we went to Gurney to watch TRANSFORMER!!!
yeah~ that's even better right?!! hehe...Besides, we were also doing a farewell for Cisi and Jamie...Both of them are going to continue their education out of Penang...
We'll miss u girls always!!! DISASTER rocks~!!

Never miss out the pictures we've taken~!! ^^

Lock M.A.N

DISASTER

All of Us

Cisi And Maggie

Maggie and Ashley

DISASTER again~ ^^
Cisi, Maggie & Ashley

Maggie & Chee Hooi (Lock Man Manager) XD

Vera, Soo and Maggie

Jamie and Maggie

Maggie & Terrence

After watching TRANSFORMER!!!

Will never forget the moment we've been together~

Party or Movie? Party...~ the priority~ IIISSSH

2009-06-18T13:04:00.000+01:00

Ramdom pichas to show before step in my party life~

Jingle and Maggie

Jingle, MingZhe & me

Jacyline & Maggie

Kenneth, you're so lucky to have us!!

He is my sista~~

My ex-lao kong (classmates)~ hahahahha..

Waynieee~~~ kiss

Sista, you're hot! XD

Every wednesday and saturday, there would be the same question for me....

"Party or Movie?"

iiisssh~~ These following few weeks ago, I went Mois for every wednesday and saturday with my "precious clubbing friends"!!! iiisssh~~~

And I lost my I/C and rm100 when I club!!! SHHIIIIIIIT~~
Kenneth, you din take care of my IC and end up, I had to drive the two drunkards back to rest last Saturday!! Frankly, last Saturday I was so so so not in a good mood, and I was trying to drunk myself

but..

As you know, people in SAD status always can't get drunk easily! That's why...I thought I would be drunk at the beginning, since I prepared to drunk tho, but finally, I am the most concious one!! iiiiisssh~~~ I thought I would be taken care by someone after party, mana tau end up to take care the drunkards!!~ haizzz..

Damn...Yesterday I went Mois again because of Wei Lit's birthday...I wonder when is the day that I stop Clubbing??!!! Arh~~ Club once, buy new dress once!! I will never wear the repeated dress to club...Never!!! It cause me broke..But, I still keep on buying because of party ONLY!

And one more thing, I'm trying to convince myself not to go club this saturday after my dance competition!!! Pls, don't seduce me anymore baby!!!

NO MORE CLUB! Anti-MOIS!!!!

control pls!!

Competition Night

2009-06-01T13:26:00.000+01:00

We're already trained the dance for almost 3 months and today is a big day for us(D.I.S.A.S.T.E.R)... Ultimaxx Street Dance Competition was held on today~
I totally enjoyed the night but if our group number was not in number 2 , it would be even better!!! haha...

Anyway, a blast competition was over and we won the 2nd runner up...I wish to get better than that actually, but it's out of my expectation tho... T.T sob sob~ That's the fact...~

Will upload the video if I get it someday~ Stay Tune~

After the competition, for sure we took lots of pictures as our memories...

Stanley with his sexy tattoo!!

My lady Szeyi, I love you so much!! Muaks

And then, we decided to go party to continue our hot night...

2am++ reach Mois, dancing around and drink a lil... Time past so fast just like a blink... It's 3am again and we gotta back home...I'd taken some pictures with my friends before leaving Mois!! And my friend Ashley was drunk badly but she is cute!! haha...

Let's the photos to do all the talking~~

Takashi Soon ( Chee Hooi)

Deric, Hong and Charles

Stanley Again~

My clubbing companies~ XD

Jamie, Ashley ( who was drunk cutely)

MingZhe & KokKaan

Taken By MingZhe XD

On the way to Subaidah~

If possible, I hope the night would be longer!!

Korean is HOT~

2009-05-28T14:06:00.000+01:00

A boring day that I don't even think of clubbing...
Onlining in starbuck with May at 11++pm, and suddenly I received a call from Soo who called me to party after they watching the "BREAK-OUT" show... ( I miss the show~~ DAMN IT)
Of course I would like to go since I was so excited to see Korean Bboys who are going there too!!

I prepared myself rushly, and headed to Mois with MeiFeng, Soo and Jamie them...
WAU~~ Lot of people over there again but who cares!! I just want to meet the BBOYS!!!

We shake on the dance floor, and those boys were trying to flirt and eeewwww...~
Felt so disgusting since I didn't see any boy I like!!! XD
An elder blue shirt man came to dance with me but I just simply ignore him...And his friend was laughing on him~~~ HHMMMMM...Just simply don't like the old man~ Should say...haha

Iiissh~~ It's already 3am and I still didn't know the korean Bboys yet!! Mois was going to close so we went out and Soo was talking with the Bboys~~
Finally I saw them!! YEeeSSS!!!! They are cool, they are good-looking (even though they have no big eyes like me!) hahaha...Their look and their wearing just simply AWESOME!!
O-M-G The elder man who was trying to dance with me just now was together with them!! And he kept on pointing on me when talking with Soo, looked like asking Soo something about me... Yet, he pointed on me and give me a gesture to ask me over there... wow~~ I was totally nervous and felt so embarrassing since I rejected to dance with him just now~~~ AAARRRHHHH... I shouldn't do that if I know he is one part of the BBOYs!!! haha
~I do really REGRET!!!

He talked with me...And another korean Bboy named BEAT was beside him too...They asked my name and started to talk with me...WOW~ Elder man is already 30 yrs old and BEAT is 25...Hmmm...elder Man...you're really old enough for me tho~ XD
They are nice!! I like them!!! wakakaka....

Ignore my stupid face done by the elder korean uncle!!!

Here the Bboy BEAT!! Yeahh~ I like him!!

XOXO He likes me too! haha

Next station, headed to a cafe and continue beering... Chit chat a lot (especially BEAT) although their English is really suck!! XD

4am ++, we decided to back but they have no transport due to the stupid taxi is so damn expensive...So....We drive them back~~!! MeiFeng is the driver, one of them sit in front, and Jamie and I had to sit behind, BEAT rushed to sit with me~~ wakakaka...

XOXO I know what you're thinking~ ahem....On the way to their G hotel, BEAT kept on talking with me, yet, hold my hands~~!! wahahahaha...SWEEEEET right?! XD

of course I feel so good, baby~~~ come on~~~ hahaha...But anyway, I know he's only can be friend and friendship will be end up after that day~ haha...Communication problem....No idea wurt~~ XD At least, I know him~~!!! Here the biatch is coming~~!!!

Show their short performance in the "BREAK-OUT" show...ENJOY IT~~!!

Ignore my over excited on that day~,~

Celebration Party~

2009-05-22T05:15:00.000+01:00

Finally, I met my "old" friends LingMiin, Caryne and KeXin(knew them for almost 8 years!!!) at Queensbay yesterday evening... I was the one who came late and back early..
=,= sounds bad ... Due to my dance training, I have no choice to leave them early... sob~~ Gotta meet yall next time all day long! haha...No Doubt~ XD

Here the only picture we took and i grab it from caryne's blog~

Miss ya~~!!

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The night,

Was so stunning!!
after dance training, I have a party again! But, not clubbing babies...

Surprisingly, it's a BIRTHDAY PARTY for my bestie princess May!!!

wauuuu~~

I dress up myself with the new skirt I've bought yesterday, and went to UPR Sega Fredo where Jamie and Hong's working place...

A bunch of youngsters get upstairs and started to prepare the SURPRISE which she didn't even know what's going on!!!!!

hiak hiak...

We suddenly popped up in front of her and sang the sweetest song!!

"Dear Princess May,

Don't bother about how your outfit to UPR sega fredo, because you were the only main character there! Special casual look is always for this special birthday girl! And, your baby gave you your favourite chocolate cake which picked by himself! Appreciate the moment we gave you my lady!! No more tears, bring your guts out, and be strong always! Mwahhhxx!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!"

We love you always!!

XoxO You know you love me too!!!

hehe....

~Pichas here you go!!~

All of us~

With my princess birthday girl~

Spotted my lighting finger, with two ganster look~~ yiish~XD

The bartender or the housemate or the dancer,
Hong

The Vampire Vera

Pretty Yunn, Dyi's baby~ XD

The ladies from DISASTER

Chee Hooi, the popper~

The Bboy Steal, Deric

The cute kid, Wei Lit~ haha

The Mr. ICE

Our signature pose! haha

The good man always~ But the wearing is so BADBOYLOOK!!!

The best dancers in Penang! XD LOL

The sexy Hong~

I'm totally enjoy the day!!

Only Shopping, Drinks, Foods and Laughters~

2009-05-21T01:25:00.000+01:00

Went to Queesnbay with Jamie again to look for our dance costume...
We finally found what we want...yeepeee!!... The mission were done so....
My mind keeps on remind me...

" Maggie, it's time to get a new dress for yourself!!!"

WaaAAaaAuuUUUuu....

I spotted a purple skirt eventhough it had been a while hanging there and it seems have no high demand tho...But I simply like it yet purchase it with rm100.... ~SATISFIED~!!

It was dinner time after having my new skirt, I drove to pick May and Jamie headed to Restaurant Bella Italia and had our biiig meal!! Honestly, the food were not good enough as I thought but luckily, it has a great environment and we randomly took some NIIIIICE photos!~ HAHA...

Ignore my tiny fatty thumb~~

"Sluuuurrpsss"

Bringing up our fuuuullll stomach to BED because Vera is working over there...We picked a "feng shui" seat and started our girl's game!! Cam-whore of course ~~ Yet, we played "HEART ATTACK" with full of....hmmm....Silly actions we made....LOL...

Time passed like a blink and it were almostly 4am...We were still so excited!!!! But there have no choice for us...Must be back and have a rest ladies!!!

Pillow talks with May until 6am...

Sun rises, it's time to sleep baby~!! haha

Sunset Night~

2009-05-13T13:23:00.000+01:00

No party today...

No pretty dress on us...

Oh!!

so casual~~

I fetch my little May to studio meet up Jamie them...

And took lots of stupid photos in our second home----> STUDIO~

Yet, we headed to Sunset Bistro with Vera and her friend Sunee...

Chit Chat all the night...They drank their beer, and i drank my Malibu...But...not that nice as Bed one ~ T.T

Anyway, we enjoy the night although it suddenly had a heavy rain while we were playing "TRUTH"... I love the night with full of fun and honesty~?! hahaha

Ended Love will not Begin~

2009-05-12T18:55:00.000+01:00

Simple love started with a naive couple...

Yet, broke up with lots of stupid reasons...or maybe...excuses...

A few years after,
We know we actually can't make thing turn over again since we know what we wish for, finally...
We stare at each other, understand each other SOOOO well, and we consciously know, we're not born together...

However, we started the G-A-M-E and we probably know we should end this game before the thing worse off!!! But, there have no one takes the consideration about "GAME OVER"... The game will proceed until someone will get heart bleeding seriously...

Either you or me, will be the loser or maybe both of us...

It's pretty cool and awesome when we involve in this bitch game...

"Your faithlessness, my realities, work together

and

our RECIPROCITY exist..."

Apparently, it is scary~

I'm totally reveal when I'm with you instead of being your GF...
ahem...
I prefer not to be a GF~!!

korean boy, I'm real in front of you...

Shopping without Thinking

2009-05-12T07:17:00.000+01:00

"Window Shopping" this kinda stuff will never appears in my life~~ or should say...
I must buy something eventhough I know it's not what I want...
Money oh money, I love you but I love girl's thing more!!!! XD ( You'll regret soon MAGGIE!)

Prepared myself for the shopping day or maybe for a sudden date?! haha...

"Girls always need to be prepared prettily once you step out your house..."

Yea, that's my philosophy~~

Seriously, I was sick and having sexy voice causes by the stupid sore throat today...But still, a shopping mission is necessary for my dance team DISASTER which is going to have a competition at 30th of May... We headed to search for our costume and finally, Jamie, Vera and I were end up with a BLANK THIIN wallet and plenty of receipts...Applaus~~

~Photos of the day~

sexy voice I have~ XD

A day past

2009-05-11T19:34:00.000+01:00

I've taken my SPM cert finally...XD Back to Jit Sin and met some of my friends...Apparently, lots of my friends didn't study in form6 but still, I have friends there^^Glad to meet them!! hehe...

Next, I went to Penang meet my ladies again in Manilla Place..We talked and shop as usual and finally, end up spending my money at topshop again~~=.= But not that expensive anyway,how frugal I am TODAY!!^^

Night, we'd training at studio since the competition is around the corner..Well, we gotta arrange the formation all over again since May couldn't make it to the competition due to her serious injury...Feel bad to her...But honestly, she still looked that gorgeous when gossiping with us this morning!! XD haha...Applaus...

Here, a day past again...

Something that make my eyes sore, yet laugh my ass off~!!!HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

"People's mind always grow day by day..From the naive us, become the matured lady..Lots of "unnecessary" things should be ignored apparently~~But it doesn't mean everyone is same like us who are optimistic no matter what happened... Sometimes people tend to do something a lil' over, but that's the real feeling, the real scence we've shared, the reality world... As I always mention here, the real world is actually hedious!! So, you either can choose to accept or ignore...Don't act FOoOoOLish in this world if u couldn't accept the fact, you know, it's kinda suck!

Should say...it's freaking s-u-c-k!"

The way I blog, is the sense of humor~~^^V

X.O.X.O You know you're suck~!

~My Wednesday~

2009-05-07T13:51:00.000+01:00

I've spent hundred something to have a new dress again~ YIIISH~~!!! I still have 2 new dresses haven't wear yet, then get a new one again...HAHA...I wonder when I can wear them..XD

The Jenny Humphrey's dress just couldn't keep away from my attraction!! So, no clubbing clothes to buy but finally purchase for another type of dress!! XD

When the exam was over, it's time for us to party again~

May, Vera and I were rushing to dress up ourselves after training for our dance...

Headed to Mois at 12something...

The sexy dance section was already started, and I saw a girl..you know what?! This is the 1st time I saw someone wear a non-branded T-shirt with a short jeans was dancing at the sexy dance section!!EEWWWW~~ What the hell was that??!! AARRGH..She was driving me crazy again when I noticed that she was my

"famous" secondary schoolmates last time...(I've to emphsized that, she is not my friend tho~)

She was the most impressive girl in the club because she was the only one who wear this kind of...you know...So-called OUTfit!! HAHA..

Anyway, I've lots of fun that night..(Eventhough there had some haters out there dancing around you and when looking at their enjoyable face, that was really disgust me!! YUCKS~)

New friends introduced, yet socialization started...

End up our party night with full of laughters...

No photos for that day because enjoy the night was the priority~! XD

Behind the white lies, it's really ugly!

2009-04-23T21:07:00.000+01:00

Feel so wanna blogging with the "I can feel a hot one" background music..

We chat as usual just now..
Sweet talks everywhere eventhough that's only sweet to listen~

Since when, I started to talk white lies..
The 3 words "I love you" for me is so so damn easy to speak it out...
And then , for me, what is a big deal of talking those 3 words?!

You know how to flirt, I know how to biatchy anyway~~

Until today, I admit that I actually forget
what is the so-call "fall in love" feeling to him...
He might shocked and he thought he was the one who make a change on me...
Apparently not...! I've became someone else since I live independently..
but I just didn't noticed that until the day we started our relationship and yet, end our relationship like just so "NOTHING",

Only I know...What a real person I am!

You're the one who make me really understand on what kind of person I actually am!

You said you're not sure on why you would tell me "I LOVE YOU" all the time..
But I don't even know what is the purpose of telling you "I love you" everytime..( that most probably people thought "the hardest word to say")..
I spoke that easily because I just want to involve myself into that situation..

Maybe...I LOVE YOU doesn't mean much to me anymore~

So now...You can clearly figure out who I am~

"White lies are always nice to hear but behind the scence,

it is actually ugly!"

I confessed to him, I don't know what is love actually, I only know the realist world...
That's why I can accept what you've done to me outside, that's in my expectation tho!...
I know it early when the 1st second that I started the decision on being together with you~

I know the real world since I'm part of them...

But I didn't do anything that betrayed you..

My sincerity is still there..

People will think that your action was actually betraying me..but as you said to me:" thats only ma...not a big deal for you gua.." " you jealous or unhappy?" HOHOHO... You're right...such thing really not a big deal for me anymore... I'm not jealous, I answered truly, since you didn't mentioned both of you end up the relationship and, I was the one who step in between yours 1st...

Nobody fault on this kind of situation....
Because...

This is the Real World....The Real human-being...The real you...and the real Me...!

p/s :Realistic is only the minor part... The real personality of yourself, don't hide as it will become black-est! Show it to the people around you, let them know..you live with it~
I myself, know my negative personality, but i treat it as the real me...

I'm not a white paper tho~

Never forget what you've told me
" You pretend not to know but actually you've already know"

* Sorry D, I don't mean to hurt you, just want to let you know my actual feeling on our relationship, but I do really treat you with my sincere true heart..I mean it...sorry..*

Frankly, we know each other....

Update Development?

2009-04-23T10:19:00.000+01:00

Apparently, I don't know what to blog right now...Just feeling that,

DAMN! It's been a long time I never update my blog..

HAHA

Maybe it was just tiny things happen around me these few days..

Or the things might just...not a point for blogging~

Let's

Talk about last week..

I had a bad presentation on selling Condom last tuesday which make me moody for the whole day..I hate that kind of feeling...~DEEPLY~

I met him at night that he request me to have supper with him at the mamak stall nearby. We used to talk a lot, but I was hiding my actual feeling on that day..Yea...I was totally exhausted for the last few days on fighting with my assignments and the stupid last minuted presentation...Although I was actually not feeling so good at the time, still, I pretend I was just that simple tired one without other reason.

The next day, he thanked me on willing to accompany him last night. Besides, he still said: "...you always put a sweet smile on your face in front of me although you're sorely tired.." Yea...That's true~~~I seldom show my real expression in front of him because I don't think that the point that make me moody, is a big deal to him..Thus, I rather act nothing in front of him instead of showing my sadness face~! Maybe, he knows actually, and just also pretending in front of me?

Since he told me before that, my negative side is
" ...you pretend not to know but actually you're already know..."
Yea...He's absolutely right...He knows me...

Went to college as usual, and started my revision with my classmate to prepare for the coming exam...Open up the thumbdrive that he gave me last night, and watch his 1st video on playing drum...He said I am the 1st person to watch this video...Oh ya..I do really hope so~ XD Feel happy to listen that... You know, I wouldn't trust him that much! Sorry tho~

Saturday, it's TopShop student's discount day...A big day for me~
AH HAH~!! 20% discount for every item for only one day..So....I bought a RM200 dress and a RM130+ top...Means I myself spend about RM300++ something and plus my sister...Overall purchase, cost us rm500++ ...YAHOO!!! That's worth right~~~~~~

One of the top that I bought..It might look not that nice here...haha...But I just like it when I wear it~!
I couldn't find another dress that I bought through the topshop website...So just show only one of this...^^

The happiest day on the week..!!

Exam period start on this week...

And the day I blog, mean >>

Today, I've already taken 2 papers for this sem..and I still left one more paper and two more resit papers...DAMN!! I hate resit!!!! Promise...NO RESIT ANYMORE!!!

Tell myself, if maggie wong still have to resit, no more shopping day~!!!T.T

The following paper will be my sem3 Wed Page Design PAPER!! wakakakaka...

I aim for better result for this paper one!!

Good then~~

*GOD BLESS ME *

Wednesday--The Day And Night--

2009-04-02T18:25:00.000+01:00

The Day

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Our business plan presentation is held on today early in the morning~..

But what really make me feel so irritated was, THERE HAD NO ELECTRICITY while presentating!! This was fucking extremely hot as I were wearing the formal wear!! I am so terrified on high temperature!! I just can't stand for sweating!!! ARRRRHHH~~

No matter how bad the situation is...Our presentation was still need to proceed..

Our business plan is to open a restaurant that provide the nutrition food knowledge depends on the individual's needs by a professional nutritionist

so-called

New Tree "shen"(should be written in mandarin) Restaurant...

Let me show off some of my presentation part..

WAHAHAHAHA

"Can't even spend one minutes of your time on having a great and healthy meal? Or you might be forget to take care of your child on providing them a healthy food? Can you imagine you or even your family are suffering on health problem one day during the young age that you couldn't expect before? We should take action before the things worse off! It is time for you to stop the roller coaster that you ride on and find a solution! Here is our business plan to help our customer to create a healtheir you! Step in our New Tree Shen Restaurant to enjoy our authentic nutrition food with the professional nutrition guidline's services. Healthy food at the affordable price is never out of style. Your health, our priority!"
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
So proud of it...We done our presentation although there has no electricity!!

p/s:Professional Marketers are always be prepared to do their presentation well done regardless how good or bad of the situation is!! ^^V

Shi Chek ( who always skip class with me~) & Maggie

Here we are! New Tree Shen Restaurant Management and Organization~! XD

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The Night

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The night is for ladies to party!!!

Mois is always our choice but unfortunately, those " du gao" were fighting at the night!! They ruined the sexy dance section!

Fighting because of a girl!!!

(I guess those lala just didn't agree with that sexy dance results or maybe something else? I've heard a lot of versions anyway~ but..who cares?! XD

we just want...

SHOW TIME!!!!)

~Immatured~ Non-educational~LALA KIA~gangsterism~Act cool (someone fall down at the stage while fighting)LOL~

~Out of respect~Threw beer bottle~Blocking the toilet!!!!~

It's even cooler if someone die!!

hahahahaa~

yea I'm devil~!!

Nevertheless...

Nothing else besides bleeding I guess~

Everyone in the club can enjoy the real show through our Mois clearly plasma!

haha...

Finally, they get caught by our "useful" policemen!!!

Applaus ladies!!!

yo~ make some noise!!! CHEEERRRR~!!!

Lots of people leave after that incidents

but

not us!!

*CONTINUE PARTY~!*

wo wo shake shake hot!

Mei Feng & shorty Maggie!!

While waiting for the police to catch those lala~

New friend, MeiFeng & MAG~~

End Up our party with "hello by Beyounce"

Don't Love Me!

2009-03-27T18:30:00.000Z

Well, well, well...I had just mentioned at the previous article, saying that
I wouldn't turn my life back to the past...Because it is just over! I know...We'd become matured compared to the pass young "us" but it doesn't mean the problems would not exist.. I mean it...

That's my philosophy~~

I might be too obstinate in some ways since I'm selfish on paying my heart on love. I've too many dreams to accomplish, to concentrate, to sacrifice, to consider but I'm not willing to do anything for love! "Love...is not my priority..It hasn't been arrange in my life yet as I'm a realist until I don't know how LOVE is." It could also be said that I'm still not in preparation for love...It might sound like an excuse but I really can't sacrifice anything for love~Therefore, I poured out to him and emphasize not to keep any love for me..

It's been two year ago...After two years, we meet again, but it doesn't mean anything~ Yea...Both of us have change a lot..He changes good but I change bad...
He said, we can write the new story between us, everything is in our hand..it's glad for me to back to his side because I found the real me in front of him...But, I just couldn't appreciate his love!!
Short-term love is always running in my life...I'm not a faithful girlfriend! ooopsss...
I don't want to mess this up again lar!!!

As I've mentioned before, people always exchange their characteristic with the one they treat as. So, I've become the lastest "him", bringing up his characteristic to treat this "him" which I've been likely to be treated by the lastest "him"...hmmm....sounds so biatch! But, I am!
This korean boy gonna be my victim and he will struggle on it~!!
Or maybe, I'm the loser at the end~ who knows?!

Since both of us started this game as well...
"Who loves the most, that's the loser!"

Don't love me anyway, otherwise, you gonna suffer for being hurt!!!