Lost my way

It's my pleasure that I lose something and I get something else instead...

God is fair enough,
"He gave you something that you'd desired for years,and also took away the thing from you that had already be with you for years..."
People will only realize,
When the time you received something, that's the time you'll lose something...
Thing will probably comes and goes...As life goes on...

For love ---
I've lost to be the past "me" because I know how bad I was before the moment when you kissed me... I realize it when I was sleeping alone, I know I need your shoulder to lie on... I don't mean that I'm good enough for now, I just know something have changed after you've entered my heart... You're the reason that I start all over again to know the real me...

For friendship ---
It used to be so familiar to me, so close and simple... But,I've lost in my friendship definition...I've lost something that had already accompanied me for years, but I know beautiful moment will fly as a butterfly... I couldn't find the soul of being a real friend anymore...I know, I've changed after making decision as I said, I mean it...
The so-called "friendship forever", you know, I know...

For Future ---
But somehow, I'm too conscious on what I want and I've forgotten the thing happen around me...I don't know what I would be change when I need to get something for my future and let something goes just for the future...
I'm frustrated when I see a stranger of me in the future who may be completely an evil or angel neither...

For Maggie ---
Inside of her own incredible world, she keeps everything that she learn everyday... Her realistic is her symbol but besides that, there have actually more than that which she herself hasn't been figured out yet... Being a realism, is her only way to keep herself conscious on finding her own way... She lost when she let something go, but then she lock herself in a tiny room to think which door should her open to continue her new journey...

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"I've lost but I never forget the way to enter your heart..."

Wherever I go, my soul would be with you...

Kikko

The first time I meet Kikko today...
The first time I help a puppy take bath ( I was actually standing there, XD)...
The first time I see him, taking care of her puppy, Kikko...His action had truly touched my heart...
The first time I see him scold Kikko, he seems like scolding a baby, it's warm...

I feel warm and blissful when looking his action on how he treat his puppy... It makes me feel like, he is a real good daddy... The way he talked to Kikko, the way he clean up Kikko, they way he played with Kikko, I can feel his love and kindness thoroughly. I like to see him taking care on Kikko... It's really warm my heart....

Kikko was so afraid when seeing her daddy leave her alone... I might too strange to her yet, that's why she scared... She cried and I almost shed my tears for her frustration. I kept on comforting her but it was useless, I yelled to her daddy, asking him to come out as fast as possible....

Through out the day, I can feel even deeply on my love to him... I can't stop thinking of him even if he is just beside me....

...Part of my life...

Thanks

The day will come, as the fact is already started two months ago.... I can see through your words that you actually do still care on it even though you'd given up, obviously...

What's the actual feeling of yours? Sad? Disappointed? Numb? or Regret?
I don't know if the words are truly sincere from your heart, or just expressing it to stable your emotion....I know I shouldn't care about that since it's no longer my concern, but I used to be your good listener and his neither... Yet, and finally, thing turns up unexpectedly... I know you will be shocked when knowing the truth that has already happened so sudden... The unexpected thing can simply change just a blink which is so unconditional...
"When something was belong to you on the last second, doesn't mean it will not belong to others at the next second..."In fact, was you the one who loosen your hand to let it go...

Frankly, I can feel it deeply about your true feeling through your action and words...Wishes from your heart, I would like to give hundred of thankful.
But somehow, it's actually impact my emotion tho~ As I know the day on facing this problem will come, and it's really make me feel so insecure...I don't mean to not believe in anyone else, just the behavior of myself, the lack of confidence, the terror of losing someone who I just started to let him enter my heart....
But I know consciously that LOVE is just between he and I...

Anyhow, the decision you made, had given us a big changes...

~He and I know that~