Yellow up!!! Dinner's Outing~

Hong Konger Rita's big day~

They planned to go Gusto to enjoy the Italian taste for her birthday celebration~ wootz..
Nice weather for that day..
And of course, nice environment as well as the food indeed...

I only have a few pictures of the food to show which I grab it from my friend ^o^...

Dance on da Newcastle's Floor!

Flash back every single moments before I step into United Kingdom's Land...
I used to hang out around with my babes...
Babe Ashley, Babe Vera, Babe Jamie...
We gossip together, we had dinner together, we drink and chill, party together and etc ...
The most important one is...
We danced together, and we will continue dancing sooner~

Farewell Party before I leave Penang..

After I came into the Brit's land, there have a lot of people ask me about the club over here...
Everyone thought UK must have dope clubs, fun place to chill with...
What I can tell is...Malaysia still has its own flavor~ LOLx..

Well, in UK...There's a lot of club, therefore, they will need to keep updating something fun in their club...such as organized some events, theme party and whatever that can attract clubbers!!

I wasn't had too much partying here due to the weather which always make me to surrender to go for a party...LOLx...
As the Brit girls here are so crazy, they wear normal sexy party dress without stocking, without coats go to the club by walking even if it is snowing!!
I remembered I saw some girls was shouting out loud, wearing their sexy dress with high heels, walking on the snow's pathway while it is snowing...Imagine the snows stick on your hair, and few minutes later your pretty hair is dump!! I couldn't accept this as girls normally take such a long time to make up themselves and just being spoil like that by those fucking snows...

So, Malaysians...You should feel chuffed to bits by having such nicer weather in 365 days which can allow you to go club with no worries whenever you want and wear whatever you like!!! ^o^

Anyway, Newcastle has various different kind of party...But, for sure I only choose to go which I prefer to go...Especially those theme party or events~
Let's start party!

Foam Party -->
So far, the best party ever that I've experience!! The party was organized by our university's club...

Before the party has started...
After that, the foams splashing all over on us!!

  

Chinese New Year abroad in English Land~

Bunny year....
How will it be?
Prosperous! Healthy and Wealthy!!!
haha~



Everybody thought I will be back for celebrating Chinese New Year...
Absolutely wrong~ No ones here went back for celebrating due to we have to study at first, secondly, it doesn't need to spend a pence to go back because my family went to Bali trip! LOLx..

So how was my Chinese New Year here??

In a nutshell of my 20th~

Have been a year since my 20th birthday after...

Pressie from them for my 21st Birthday during assignments submission period!!~

What have I done for my previous 20th?!
I wonder if I completed it with a life that full of meaning..

My 20th,
with a laughter of friends..
with sweetest love from my beloved one..
with bunch of cares from my family...
with plenty of dreams of mine...
and finally, started to walk on my pathways...
to chase for my desire success..

Christmas Market

Hi peeps~ How are you doing?! Hopefully, everyone is doing great ya~

There's a festive in the run up to Christmas at Grey’s Monument, Grey Street and Grainger Street where are some street that I always need to walk along if I want to go Tesco to grab some food...
When I first step my feet on this Christmas Market, first thing that came into my mind was " UK Pasar Malam." ^o^
Despite of the market doesn't that big as ours in Malaysia one, it has represented the happy and fun of this coming Christmas...So it wouldn't disappointed me tho~







Just like our Pasar Malam, that gives us a very local gourmet ingredient of Malaysia, while for their Christmas Market, you can find a very real taste of Europe. You can get a curry wurst from Germany, waffles from Holland, paella from Spain and crepes – both sweet and savoury from France.

However, there have one thing that is so much different with our "Pasar Malam", which is their price doesn't seem to have like "Pasar Malam's" price instead... What I really expected before I came was, I thought their price will take care of our pocket compare to usual one, but it seemed I'm obviously wrong~ haha!

Anyhow, it is still a very fun place to hang around and of course not to miss out any chance to grab something scrumptious to eat...I'd spotted the Nougat with various of choices which is always my favorite, and it then end my 15quid up to have these Nougat!!!! ~hurt~ Regardless the blood sucking price, I did feel satisfied enough to have my favorite Nougat that really taste soooo goooood indeed...

I strongly recommend Tiramisu flavor Nougat. weee^^

Big Mussel- Seafood and Grill Restaurant

After the Christmas Market, me and my friend were decided to go for dinner and we hope to get something more local instead of China Town.. So, we went to Quayside, the Big Mussel Seafood and Grill restaurant...Nothing much to talk about this restaurant because I've fell in love with their seafood and superb value for money!!

My Fruits Pasta Seafood

My friend's Big Grill and Mussels' Platter

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Took a photo at Northumberland Street with their Christmas light decoration while on the way back to my warmy dorm...

That's all for my simple night!!!

More to share~

Snowing

I'd just mentioned in my facebook about the earlier snows had covered the city unexpectedly compare to last year...It's the earliest snowing ever so far, but for people who never played under the snow before would be a good news, XD like us!! It's snowing...I was very excited, staring out my window, hand out to feel the snows...so soft, so fragile...

The snows had turned my mood up to the highest green meter.... It takes a few hours to shower the city, and everything outside had just whited-out in just a blink...I was staring on it and wanted to tattoo the scene into my memory...

We'd for sure to take some picture after our class on the next day... And never forget to play the snow activity at the night...Snow-ball fighting was absolutely awesome and building for snow man wasn't that easy as I thought!! It was so tired!!!
Anyway, we still had a blast one!!

heavy snowing...

I've got a lot more activities are coming soon!

Departures

12th September 2010

10.10PM (M'sia)

(Ignore my pale face since no even foundation or any make for 16hrs flight!)

It’s time for me to fly, to leave Malaysia for one year….When I walked down the departures counter, I didn’t hug anyone of them…My parents, my brothers and my beloved dear….Because I didn’t want to make anyone sheds any tears for me….I keep in mind, it is just a short journey, everyone can see me after few months later….It’s not a big deal, it doesn’t take a long time for us to separate, that's why we don't need a hug…And, yes…I walked inside after seeing my dear again, and I can read his eyes…We want hug but we didn’t, and I decided not to do so because I scared to drop my tears…And I turn around, keep in mind that everything will be alright, it takes a short months to go…

13^th September 2010

12:56PM (M'sia)

6.45AM (Amsterdam)

I’ve reached Amsterdam Schiphol airport safely…I’ve been in the flight from KL to Amsterdam for almost 12 hours….It was not a good slept for me as you can’t even laid down properly but at least when I wake up, it was almost there.. By the way, I’m now sitting alone, typing down all my feeling of being alone down here, waiting for my next transit flight to Newcastle after one hour later….I’m not afraid but I feel it would be nice if I have friends be with or my parents together, it would be even nicer if my dear stay beside...I tried to SMS him by using my Hotlink, and it works….I’ve started to miss him…

15.10PM (M'sia)

08.55AM (Newcastle)

Here I am in Newcastle...I'm excited to see how the city looks like for me to stay within this few months...And, yeah, it's a very good study environment over here...Looks green, looks peace...
There have free service from my University to bring us to our own accommodation...Once I reach, I quickly done my internet service, when I online, I saw him has already waiting for me...The time is just so accurate for both of us to meet in skype...I feel pleased when listening on his voice...Feeling like he is just around me...^^

Grown Up through Competition

My blog was death for such a long time, I've abandoned it for several months...OooOPS

I used to post any of my lifestyles in my blog long time ago with my true feeling and thinking that store in my mind, I would like to explode it out through my little bloggie...

Well, of course, for this time, I've plenty of mind that I need to express it out all the way...

Ok...Before the few weeks ago, I thought I'd figure out what all the wrongs that I'd ever made for my dance crew in terms of synchronization, choreography and etc....But, in fact, it seems a little worse off after I'd change something...I guess I'd missed out something very basic for my dance team....I might force them too hard to do something which exceed their ability, or I'd forget to guide them in foundation...I bring them fly when they didn't know how to walk, because I always thought they will find out when they get enough experiences....I guess this would be the biggest mistake that cause the result into up-side-down way...

For the reason I lose it, because I might be too much dependable and I might be too keen on learning from stars.... I never thought and I never even want to learn from people who I never heard before even if public agree that he/she is great....There have plenty of chance for me last few weeks, but I missed it because I think there have something more important than it which is the family...But, honestly, for the last time of me, I would probably learn any anything that I could even if there have plenty of blocks....I wonder, when I become such out of aspiration....I guess, because the days that I'm in Malaysia has been decreased day by day....
That's why I lost it, that's why I missed it..

I'm awake from that, the terms of originality is no longer that important as long as there have a modify, as long as you dance with full heart... And, I keep on watching their video, I ponder it deeply on the way they step up....I saw full effort, I saw their growth, maturity and confidence which not just build in last minutes....Besides, I consider mine one, and I know it's not because of choreography or synchronization, it's because lack of soul....Where are the soul gone? and, How could I lead them to find their own soul?

Other than that, I finally realize that, when it comes to effort, it comes with luck...
And, I finally understand why they keep on changing their name...



I am awake from this competition....

I remember every effort that we did

Directions

I've been setting up my path before I step on it for years ago...I always hope my expectation will just go on smoothly, I put my faith into it....

I've been hoping for years, to wait for the right time, to start my real journey... But, when it is the time, I only realized that, I'm the only person who think it is right, who think this should be, who knows my way is going to disappear, entirely. It's been so hard for me to bring everything down and construct another way.... Yet, I only know I can't start all this by my own, just only me to start my own journey... This is awfully stupid when your own journey cannot be done by oneself, it's even worse when your thoughts are clarity that you're actually lack of ability to step on, and just like that...

I feel foolish, I feel helpless, I feel imma useless....

You have the path, but you will still need someone to bring you up....
It's not only myself to be with...
And, it's cut me down entirely to destroy the hopes that I build by myself.....


The disagreement should be done before I do....Unless I still hadn't build my first path.....
But, until I've completed, I only know I'm right here with only one person alone who can't do anything else.... Who stupidly waiting for the hopes.....

Appreciate you and me

The reason I blog today is because I've read someone's blog (http://gigikissu.blogspot.com) and really touch my heart.. Her bf was death....She took down every single moments of her and her bf...She wrote down the feeling that she want to express hardly.... I know, it's hard to get through all this....But she did it...she's strong, she's optimistic....She's the one who knows life...
Life goes on....

Seriously, after reading her blog, I've got a heavy impact...
She has assured the real love for me about-->
"no matter how far the distance is between a couple, the believe of love, the sincerity to each other, will make them closer... "Even if I'm a real realism, but still, I realize love..

I always worry about the day when I leave him, but I know that is a must for me...I don't mean to be selfish or realistic, but the opportunity of leaving cannot be waited...I choose to leave because I've been dreamed for years...Because I believe your love to me and mine neither...Because I know both of us will be waiting for each other.... At least, the chance of being together are still exist for both of us... There have always a "TRUST" to continue our journey...

As everyone knows, appreciate people around you, that's always the best thing to be done and believe...

When we hold our love tightly, love will not escape easily...
Our hard work, never betray us...
My real love, never lie to you...
And your love to me, I tattoo in my heart...

It's a test for our love

My 20th

Goooossshhh~!! I'm now with the age start with 2!!!
Alright, I know age cannot lie as I've grown up with no longer a teen...
Time, words and opportunity, this 3 thing that gone - will never come back...
Appreciate- is only what we can do...
Well prepared and proper planning are always the tools to ready for the incoming opportunity and success...

For sure, I've made wishes for the best evolution for myself in the 20th...
Doing thing with a good reason that can result a good future are always the best thing ever...Wishes can be done easily but it doesn't mean it can be achieved with a blank hand...Day-dreaming are always awfully stupid~!!!

Thus, I make a wish not to be the stupid-dumb-ass...XD

One of my birthday wish had come true on the exactly day...Which is celebrated my birthday with my love one...
Despite of not having a blast one, I was feeling touch enough to have such a warm birthday...
Nah~ I still have to remain the blast one for my 21 birthday!!! hahahaha..

My birthday was clearly depicted on these photos...

My dearest dancing's friends!

Present from my dear^^

Dinner in Little Cottage..

Birthday Wishes

I know I have a lot of wishes that currently cannot be achieved, yet I always hope that there have a miracle to make it comes true...I put all my expectation on you because you're the only one who I believe... I've been almost N years never truly celebrated my birthday with an unforgettable memories... That's why I expect so high on my 20th birthday because this time, I have you...

I expect you to read my mind, so that you know what kind of birthday I want to be...
I expect you to know what kind of birthday cake I wish to have...
I expect you to plan something special without my knowledge....
Every expectations that I made on you, is just my point-of-view...
I know, it's hard for you to figure it out...

Realistic I always be,I know it's ridiculous, but I know how to be optimistic and learn satisfactory...

Nothing is always that perfect but at least not disappointments...
I don't request luxury even if I really hope to get it...
But, what I want would be a good, romantic environment with only you and me...
I don't request to have a branded even if I'm so keen on it...
But, at least something can replace it even if it is just a cake...

The first time ever that I'm feeling that nervous for the coming day of tomorrow...
Perhaps, you catch my point...

My Christmas

First of all, I would like to shout out to everyone
MERRY CHRISTMAS...
(Because I missed the chance to yell it out on time!!!)

Well, every girls wish to have a great, peaceful, romantic Christmas Eve with their loves one,
so do I... I prepared myself early after my class...(When a girl pay much effort on making up herself nicely, this simple means how much she'd care the date..)

Since I never truly celebrate a very nice Christmas before (especially with the loves one), I was paying so much expectations on this time X'mas Eve...

I expected him to bring me to somewhere to have a fantastic yet romantic dinner..
I expected him to plan something special or something that can surprise me on the Eve...
I expected both of us can have a very unforgettable countdown day even if only he and I...
(As you know, how much I'd like those parties!)
Expectation always just like a sweet dreams.. It makes you feel so real but its actually did not happen...
I was so excited to see him, but he was in serious sick...
We went out to have dinner, but end up with a little conflict yet cover it up with the "nothing-happen" situation...

Honestly, I was in tempered that time but I can truly understand the situation...
Sometimes, a lot of thing cannot be spoken by words as I myself don't even know what I should do...
Every single thoughts running around my minds, I can clearly read them but I couldn't open my voice and speak them out... I almost burst my tears that time but I was trying so hard to control myself, if not, tears would ruin my make up...T.T

Finally, we decided where to go..
But, I really can't enjoy myself without you...
Arrhh~~~...I don't know what to do that time....I was panic, I was really drawing a blank...What I could do for you is just staying beside you....
And end up, we had porridge together...
That's my Christmas Eve!!

I know you'd use your fragile energy to hug me and give me a Christmas kiss...
I've been touched blissfully...

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The next day, 25th of Dec 2009..
We'd a one day Penang trip...
T.T
What a waste...

I don't care, you must return me my Christmas Eve!

Lost my way

It's my pleasure that I lose something and I get something else instead...

God is fair enough,
"He gave you something that you'd desired for years,and also took away the thing from you that had already be with you for years..."
People will only realize,
When the time you received something, that's the time you'll lose something...
Thing will probably comes and goes...As life goes on...

For love ---
I've lost to be the past "me" because I know how bad I was before the moment when you kissed me... I realize it when I was sleeping alone, I know I need your shoulder to lie on... I don't mean that I'm good enough for now, I just know something have changed after you've entered my heart... You're the reason that I start all over again to know the real me...

For friendship ---
It used to be so familiar to me, so close and simple... But,I've lost in my friendship definition...I've lost something that had already accompanied me for years, but I know beautiful moment will fly as a butterfly... I couldn't find the soul of being a real friend anymore...I know, I've changed after making decision as I said, I mean it...
The so-called "friendship forever", you know, I know...

For Future ---
But somehow, I'm too conscious on what I want and I've forgotten the thing happen around me...I don't know what I would be change when I need to get something for my future and let something goes just for the future...
I'm frustrated when I see a stranger of me in the future who may be completely an evil or angel neither...

For Maggie ---
Inside of her own incredible world, she keeps everything that she learn everyday... Her realistic is her symbol but besides that, there have actually more than that which she herself hasn't been figured out yet... Being a realism, is her only way to keep herself conscious on finding her own way... She lost when she let something go, but then she lock herself in a tiny room to think which door should her open to continue her new journey...

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"I've lost but I never forget the way to enter your heart..."

Wherever I go, my soul would be with you...

Thanks

The day will come, as the fact is already started two months ago.... I can see through your words that you actually do still care on it even though you'd given up, obviously...

What's the actual feeling of yours? Sad? Disappointed? Numb? or Regret?
I don't know if the words are truly sincere from your heart, or just expressing it to stable your emotion....I know I shouldn't care about that since it's no longer my concern, but I used to be your good listener and his neither... Yet, and finally, thing turns up unexpectedly... I know you will be shocked when knowing the truth that has already happened so sudden... The unexpected thing can simply change just a blink which is so unconditional...
"When something was belong to you on the last second, doesn't mean it will not belong to others at the next second..."In fact, was you the one who loosen your hand to let it go...

Frankly, I can feel it deeply about your true feeling through your action and words...Wishes from your heart, I would like to give hundred of thankful.
But somehow, it's actually impact my emotion tho~ As I know the day on facing this problem will come, and it's really make me feel so insecure...I don't mean to not believe in anyone else, just the behavior of myself, the lack of confidence, the terror of losing someone who I just started to let him enter my heart....
But I know consciously that LOVE is just between he and I...

Anyhow, the decision you made, had given us a big changes...

~He and I know that~

Heart Beating

Phew….my heart is still beating that fast…
I just couldn’t expect thing will be happened on this time…
He is always a good guy in my heart and I never expect the good guy is beside me…
I never expect the good guy actually appeared for few months ago…
A lot of thing, are never in my prediction.
And now, it’s happened…
I really thought we’re just friend at the beginning…

Who knows there have actually good thing exist, who knows the better thing maybe happened in the next second…

ARRRRHHHH I’m still in a very nervous status!!!!!!!

I know love from your eyes..

Home Alone

Mummy and Daddy are having a date at Genting and so, the little poor girl has to stay alone in home....YAWN~ I want party~!!!!!T.T..

I'm bored here but there have actually a lot of assignments are waiting on me~! LOLxx.... hmmmm...That' s why, I try to control myself very well to prevent not to go any event or party tonight~! Yes~!! GOING OUT IS PROHIBITED!!! aaarrrhhhhggggg~~ HELP~!!!!!



I gotta do my web page design assignments and my business communication presentation which can simply choose any title that we like~...WHOOOHOOO...By the way, I'm wondering what interesting and suitable title should I choose to get the attention from my lecturer??? hmmmm...Any idea??



I've got lot of thing to do in my wish list currently...but they seem couldn't be complete yet..it's all about financial problem should say... gosshhh~~!!!!

1stly, I gotta dye my hair!

2nd, I want new dress since I've been a while never restock my closet...

3rd, give me more time so that I can go my facial treatment!!!

4th, choreograph a new dance for DISASTER.

5th, cool high heel searching is on da way!!!

and blah blah blah~



What else? This coming Monday I might have an interview to get a part time promoter job... Honestly, it is not an emergency job needed for me, but it's just....FOR FUN!! haha..

Maybe it's a good chance for me to know same hot guy? XD haha...sounds so biatch huh!~

Anyway, it's better for me to earn extra income so that I can buy extra dress to satisfy my fulfillment~!! HIAK HIAK!! And of course, know some hot guys!!! hahahahaha...

Hey~Say cheers to my assignments~!! XD

Ended Love will not Begin~

Simple love started with a naive couple...

Yet, broke up with lots of stupid reasons...or maybe...excuses...

A few years after,
We know we actually can't make thing turn over again since we know what we wish for, finally...
We stare at each other, understand each other SOOOO well, and we consciously know, we're not born together...

However, we started the G-A-M-E and we probably know we should end this game before the thing worse off!!! But, there have no one takes the consideration about "GAME OVER"... The game will proceed until someone will get heart bleeding seriously...

Either you or me, will be the loser or maybe both of us...

It's pretty cool and awesome when we involve in this bitch game...

"Your faithlessness, my realities, work together

and

our RECIPROCITY exist..."

Apparently, it is scary~

I'm totally reveal when I'm with you instead of being your GF...
ahem...
I prefer not to be a GF~!!

korean boy, I'm real in front of you...

Shopping without Thinking

"Window Shopping" this kinda stuff will never appears in my life~~ or should say...
I must buy something eventhough I know it's not what I want...
Money oh money, I love you but I love girl's thing more!!!! XD ( You'll regret soon MAGGIE!)


Prepared myself for the shopping day or maybe for a sudden date?! haha...

"Girls always need to be prepared prettily once you step out your house..."

Yea, that's my philosophy~~


Seriously, I was sick and having sexy voice causes by the stupid sore throat today...But still, a shopping mission is necessary for my dance team DISASTER which is going to have a competition at 30th of May... We headed to search for our costume and finally, Jamie, Vera and I were end up with a BLANK THIIN wallet and plenty of receipts...Applaus~~

~Photos of the day~

sexy voice I have~ XD

A day past

I've taken my SPM cert finally...XD Back to Jit Sin and met some of my friends...Apparently, lots of my friends didn't study in form6 but still, I have friends there^^Glad to meet them!! hehe...

Next, I went to Penang meet my ladies again in Manilla Place..We talked and shop as usual and finally, end up spending my money at topshop again~~=.= But not that expensive anyway,how frugal I am TODAY!!^^

Night, we'd training at studio since the competition is around the corner..Well, we gotta arrange the formation all over again since May couldn't make it to the competition due to her serious injury...Feel bad to her...But honestly, she still looked that gorgeous when gossiping with us this morning!! XD haha...Applaus...

Here, a day past again...

Something that make my eyes sore, yet laugh my ass off~!!!HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

"People's mind always grow day by day..From the naive us, become the matured lady..Lots of "unnecessary" things should be ignored apparently~~But it doesn't mean everyone is same like us who are optimistic no matter what happened... Sometimes people tend to do something a lil' over, but that's the real feeling, the real scence we've shared, the reality world... As I always mention here, the real world is actually hedious!! So, you either can choose to accept or ignore...Don't act FOoOoOLish in this world if u couldn't accept the fact, you know, it's kinda suck!

Should say...it's freaking s-u-c-k!"

The way I blog, is the sense of humor~~^^V

X.O.X.O You know you're suck~!