He miss me, and so do I

It's 5AM, 24th of September in Malaysia's time...
He probably has walked inside a sweet dream...
I suddenly feel a motivation that push me to read his mind, and I did...
When I read every single word, my tears drop easily...

"Dear", that I love to call usually, this little single word has always melt my heart when I call it out.. I love to call you as my Dear, because you're the only one who has this privilege to be...

There's a moment I shed my tears on reading your mind, when I know you have million thoughts on me, and so do I...Especially when you listed out the moments when we were together, I....realizes every moments that we'd been together, it's so much fun and memorable, and it deserves to be remembered and appreciated...

When we went to cinema together,
when I ordered a bunch of food to taste, and finally you were the one who need to eat all of it...
when I help you to pop out your blackheads or pimples...
when I say which shoes or pants that you need to match with...

I hope I can do it all these again for thousands time or even million times...
I believe I can surely do these to you again and you will probably waiting for the moments although it is just a simple action...

During the period that both of us without each other, I realized that the love from me to you has increasing day by day...I'm sure you're the one who ever walk into my heart, whoever makes me so crazy in love to you...

During the moment when we're not besides to each other, I'm happy to hear from you that you're enjoying this current moments that you've someone for you to think of....And, there have someone is missing on you at the same time...You and me are not struggling on separating, in contrast, we're enjoying this to fill up better memories for the next moment, to brighten up the moment when we met, and when the moment we'll hand-in-hand again...



You will be my Dear forever who is irreplaceable...
And I believe, I will never leave you again..^^

"我真的好想你！没人陪我看戏

没人跟我按黑头`

回来后别想再离开我

不会再让你离开我！

DEAR想你！" quoted..

There have nothing to describe besides LOVE

Departures

12th September 2010

10.10PM (M'sia)

(Ignore my pale face since no even foundation or any make for 16hrs flight!)

It’s time for me to fly, to leave Malaysia for one year….When I walked down the departures counter, I didn’t hug anyone of them…My parents, my brothers and my beloved dear….Because I didn’t want to make anyone sheds any tears for me….I keep in mind, it is just a short journey, everyone can see me after few months later….It’s not a big deal, it doesn’t take a long time for us to separate, that's why we don't need a hug…And, yes…I walked inside after seeing my dear again, and I can read his eyes…We want hug but we didn’t, and I decided not to do so because I scared to drop my tears…And I turn around, keep in mind that everything will be alright, it takes a short months to go…

13^th September 2010

12:56PM (M'sia)

6.45AM (Amsterdam)

I’ve reached Amsterdam Schiphol airport safely…I’ve been in the flight from KL to Amsterdam for almost 12 hours….It was not a good slept for me as you can’t even laid down properly but at least when I wake up, it was almost there.. By the way, I’m now sitting alone, typing down all my feeling of being alone down here, waiting for my next transit flight to Newcastle after one hour later….I’m not afraid but I feel it would be nice if I have friends be with or my parents together, it would be even nicer if my dear stay beside...I tried to SMS him by using my Hotlink, and it works….I’ve started to miss him…

15.10PM (M'sia)

08.55AM (Newcastle)

Here I am in Newcastle...I'm excited to see how the city looks like for me to stay within this few months...And, yeah, it's a very good study environment over here...Looks green, looks peace...
There have free service from my University to bring us to our own accommodation...Once I reach, I quickly done my internet service, when I online, I saw him has already waiting for me...The time is just so accurate for both of us to meet in skype...I feel pleased when listening on his voice...Feeling like he is just around me...^^

Grown Up through Competition

My blog was death for such a long time, I've abandoned it for several months...OooOPS

I used to post any of my lifestyles in my blog long time ago with my true feeling and thinking that store in my mind, I would like to explode it out through my little bloggie...

Well, of course, for this time, I've plenty of mind that I need to express it out all the way...

Ok...Before the few weeks ago, I thought I'd figure out what all the wrongs that I'd ever made for my dance crew in terms of synchronization, choreography and etc....But, in fact, it seems a little worse off after I'd change something...I guess I'd missed out something very basic for my dance team....I might force them too hard to do something which exceed their ability, or I'd forget to guide them in foundation...I bring them fly when they didn't know how to walk, because I always thought they will find out when they get enough experiences....I guess this would be the biggest mistake that cause the result into up-side-down way...

For the reason I lose it, because I might be too much dependable and I might be too keen on learning from stars.... I never thought and I never even want to learn from people who I never heard before even if public agree that he/she is great....There have plenty of chance for me last few weeks, but I missed it because I think there have something more important than it which is the family...But, honestly, for the last time of me, I would probably learn any anything that I could even if there have plenty of blocks....I wonder, when I become such out of aspiration....I guess, because the days that I'm in Malaysia has been decreased day by day....
That's why I lost it, that's why I missed it..

I'm awake from that, the terms of originality is no longer that important as long as there have a modify, as long as you dance with full heart... And, I keep on watching their video, I ponder it deeply on the way they step up....I saw full effort, I saw their growth, maturity and confidence which not just build in last minutes....Besides, I consider mine one, and I know it's not because of choreography or synchronization, it's because lack of soul....Where are the soul gone? and, How could I lead them to find their own soul?

Other than that, I finally realize that, when it comes to effort, it comes with luck...
And, I finally understand why they keep on changing their name...



I am awake from this competition....

I remember every effort that we did