Don't Love Me!

Well, well, well...I had just mentioned at the previous article, saying that
I wouldn't turn my life back to the past...Because it is just over! I know...We'd become matured compared to the pass young "us" but it doesn't mean the problems would not exist.. I mean it...

That's my philosophy~~

I might be too obstinate in some ways since I'm selfish on paying my heart on love. I've too many dreams to accomplish, to concentrate, to sacrifice, to consider but I'm not willing to do anything for love! "Love...is not my priority..It hasn't been arrange in my life yet as I'm a realist until I don't know how LOVE is." It could also be said that I'm still not in preparation for love...It might sound like an excuse but I really can't sacrifice anything for love~Therefore, I poured out to him and emphasize not to keep any love for me..

It's been two year ago...After two years, we meet again, but it doesn't mean anything~ Yea...Both of us have change a lot..He changes good but I change bad...
He said, we can write the new story between us, everything is in our hand..it's glad for me to back to his side because I found the real me in front of him...But, I just couldn't appreciate his love!!
Short-term love is always running in my life...I'm not a faithful girlfriend! ooopsss...
I don't want to mess this up again lar!!!

As I've mentioned before, people always exchange their characteristic with the one they treat as. So, I've become the lastest "him", bringing up his characteristic to treat this "him" which I've been likely to be treated by the lastest "him"...hmmm....sounds so biatch! But, I am!
This korean boy gonna be my victim and he will struggle on it~!!
Or maybe, I'm the loser at the end~ who knows?!

Since both of us started this game as well...
"Who loves the most, that's the loser!"

Don't love me anyway, otherwise, you gonna suffer for being hurt!!!

The Maggie

"她是一个很有想法的人！对感情，她拿得起放得下，不吃回头草是她的原则。我在想到底是现实让她变得成熟？ 还是，过去的爱情让她变得更现实？ 只有她懂。嗯，大多数她知道我的感情都是通过朋友A告诉她。我很少跟她诉苦是因为我们彼此的爱情相差很远很远。 她的爱情是好伟大，而我是好自私。甚至我好尴尬告诉她我的问题，对她来说是小事又幼稚吧!" from doubleJia

This is what I copied from one of my best friend who describe me on her article.

Firstly,对感情，她拿得起放得下，不吃回头草是她的原则。
Yes...She is right..I'll never accept my ex-lover the second time after broken up. We broke up because we're not suitable to be together, it means both of us must have some problems that stop our relationship which means we'll still face the same problem in the future. It doesn't make sense if we still get back together because the problem still exist. Apparently, my ex-boyfriends are all still very sayang me regardless what we've happened last time. Tears, arguments, sadness are all around but we're still friend after the relationship. I'm lucky to meet them who have a good role of being a good boyfriend but we're just not fated. I'm lucky to have them to take care of me, love me, treat me as good as they used to be although we're not the same status as we did before anymore--the couple. I remember their goods and their efforts on me.. But, what I would say is...really sorry that I couldn't give them my heart anymore. Sorry that I gave up our relationship.

Secondly,
我在想到底是现实让她变得成熟？ 还是，过去的爱情让她变得更现实？ 只有她懂。
She makes me think of this question. I guess, I really don't know why I'm a realist. Maybe, I'm always the realist but it is getting serious day to day. Or either, the previous love relationship had really given me a REALIST. Or both work together? To be honest, I don't think realistic is a negative personality. On the other hand, I feel it is positive to create a better me! As I said, I'm realist based on my personality and attitute.

Lastly, 她的爱情是好伟大，而我是好自私.
In fact, I'm selfish to achieve my goals. But I don't like to make any conflicts between us because I hate arguments and hopeless. And, the another reason is once we hurt our relationship, my aim of "future with him" will disappears. That's why I said, I'm selfish to get my targets.


Thanks for her that given me such an opportunity to well-understand on myself. I just hope everyone has their own right thinking.
p.s: Girl,do what you think is worth and follow-up it after you've it. I respect the final decision always. You know I will.


Yesterday, I hang out with my ex-boyfriend which our relationship had gone two years ago. This Korean boy has change a lot during this two years. When I saw him, the naive me flashback started. He and I didn't have a long love relationship last time but nowadays, he is still taking good care of me. I've been touched of course, but he is just a person who I loved before. Forgive my cold-blooded and my selfishness.

The break up

I was trying to send a message, telling him what I felt about our relationship, thinking it's time for us to TALK clearly on what we're really want. It is not a good way for us to be not contacting each other. Unfortunately, my phone was out of credit!!! What so coincidence again! It's been a week we never even text or talk to each other. But, after a few seconds, I received a message sent by him, asking what I would feel if we apart one day.
We talked on the phone, he explained the reason of his decision, I explained why I can respect for the final decision. "The being apart so call broke up is acceptable. Nothing surprise me because I’d expect this, long time ago." I mean…I know this day would come one day. He handled it very well which mean he made thing easier. What the reason is he has no time for anyone include his girlfriend. Erm..I know it’s just an excuse but I don't care because break up doesn't need an explanation!! I never told him what I really feel on this because explanation doesn't work much anymore. Although there had actually a lot of my own thinking, I was still speechless in the conversation. Because, I know what I really understand, he doesn't need to know.

During this relationship, he grow me up a lot, this is a fact I can tell. I feel I'm not the previous Maggie that I used to be anymore. I learn to be more independence without LOVE.

After a phone talk, he requested to see me. It was a pleasure of course which we can talk face to face for the last night. It's weird for us to break up for the last second but when he saw me, the first thing he did was giving a tight hug towards me. I felt it's much secured than last time when we’d still in a relationship. Somehow, our relationship is gone, no more responsibility among us but still, our actions were maintaining the same as usual. We act like a couple but we don't have the couple's real meaning. I think, this is the best way for us that no more burdens between he and I. We compromise to stop moving on our relationship and finally, the broke up were done. I'd get out his car, end up our peaceful broke up day with the biggest hug…

I would never forget the moment when we broke up. It's the sweetest broke up that I've been ever. Peace and uncomplicated.

"What we want are actually the same. We want our best career opportunity more than everything. We couldn’t sacrifice anything for love. We’re selfish, we’re realistic, we want freedom, we want brighter future more than the sweetest love, we protect ourselves more than helping each other, we’ve own goals to achieve but not love, we survive for our own self but not each other. We hide our ugliest side and show off the best for each other. We’re just not acting the truth of us."
Because, we're just not so into each other.
In my opinion, I know he doesn’t love me that much and neither I. The relationship have actually lack of LOVE.

This is why I never have a drop of tear for him but not because that I'm strong enough.
The best way for us is being apart, to fully concentrate to achieve our own dreams.

I'm a self-seeking anyway.

I have the “girlfriend” name but not the role.

It's been a while that we haven't chat properly and met each other. We're just no longer like a couple anymore. I wonder if I'm still your girlfriend even I myself couldn't differentiate you're my boyfriend or boy's friend anymore. I'm just numb for waiting your calls and I realized that I'm not that fragile in this relationship. My tears never drop for you at all.

I wonder if I really love you.

But one thing I was really surprised is.....
When I got my result that really unsatisfied me, the 1st thing that I think about was what is your feeling towards me. I feel I have no guts to let you know my result even though I know you wouldn't blame on me. I just feel so terrified if you know my bad result, I'm afraid that you would really feel disappointed on me. How stupid I am huh!

Every time when I am together with him, he gave me a lot of stress based on his experiences, his knowledge, his confidence, his smartness and blah blah blah. The stress you gave me, it's a good way for me to grow and that's one of the reason I don't wanna give up our relationship. But then, there are still have some disadvantages too!

Because of this, I never really tell you the truth of mine.

"Therefore, we have a big gap between us. Just like, we've no topic and wouldn't care much about each other."

I just feel I was just having a “girlfriend” place in your life but it's actually empty inside, means I'm just a useless girlfriend who couldn't help you in some situations regardless you're happy or sad. Like what?! I have the “girlfriend” name but not the role.

"I almost lost my feeling towards you and just feel so

“nothing”

even if you didn’t give me a call."

I guess I just...not really that love him as much as I thought before.

He isn’t that love me neither, and so do I.

Ultimaxx Genting Trip

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It’s been a while I’ve rest at home for a few weeks… It’s time for me to have a trip again with my dancing friends!

Actually, they would like to take part on the international hip hop dance competition at genting 28th of Feb. I went there for support and relax myself as well.
To be honest, it was a boring trip without shopping and playing any outdoor or indoor themepark. We were just walking around and playing around with those silly friends. You know, they’re always the craziiee players. I just don’t need to spend one cent and yet I could have a good entertainment from them! XD
The competition wouldn’t that good which they performed! Because they were just the last minutes people and done their choreography for the fire fighting before our depart day.
To be honest, they're really too easy-going for their choreograph...

Tell you what, something really interesting which everyone loves to hear!
First World Hotel, everybody knows it is “dirty”..

Yup!

"It was truth because I was one of the victim there!"

*When I was sleeping, someone touched my feet with “its” super duper cold fingers and it is impossible for a person who has such cold body temperasture!! Neither, my friend who slept beside me saw a “normal” head fly pass by our room’s window!*

HAHA…

~~~~~~~~~GHOST~~~~~~~~~

It was scary and I was absolutely terrified about that during the moment but what else I can do was just…

god bless me~

continue sleeping! XD

and my friend did it too.

We just talked about this on the next day then only realized that I’m not only the victim.
You guys might think that “oh my effy god!” but let me tell you…When you’re involve in this kind of situation, you would dare not to think much on it and just continue to do what you’re doing at the moment! Haha…like us…continue sleeping!!!
Sign…

Anyway, it could be my special experience and I was just

proud of it!

HAHAHAHAHA..
OH YA..

♥♥Photos must not be missed out!!!♥♥

Play for fun...Shout for excited~

Welcome~

Jammie And I

Posing is the basic moves in dancing!XD

ICE And Mag

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Take Note: The following photos are done by some abnormal people. Sorry for the interuption.

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Happy Flippy~

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It's only part of us in this photo. Where are the rest of all? Sleeping in the room of course!

!THE END!

Three shopaholics~!

I shoulda post this a few weeks ago…But, damn…I was just too lazy about that…
Well, finally, I’m gonna write down my unforgettable memories with my besties~!!
Definitely, are JiaJia and Christy!!

Three of us plus a boy (he hasn’t be a man yet.. LOL) are shopaholics and of course we do shop like crazy~! The 3 days 2 nights trip, we were just non-stop shopping. There has no other idea beside shopping… Erm…Oh ya~! We still went to Jogoya to have our amazing dinner as well which was RM100++ per person. It doesn’t matter about the price, I were just totally enjoy the meal with them and of course I met my secondary school friends who were my babies Maple and JoeWin~..
Actually, I spent not that much on these few days…This was just not really like me!! Haha…I thought I would spend more than that…But, at least I bought something to satisfied my needs! XD Beautiful dresses are always be my priority in my life!

Photos are always the best descriptions!!
Open your eyes bigger to see some nice photos with all my ladies~!!!

~The Jogoya dinner~

~ After dinner at Madam Kwan's Bangsar Village~

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we're the three different girls who've our own personality who have met together and become the very close friends which is irreplaceable!!

From the above photo , we can see what our personality is.. :

Maggie(left) :" Hey, I'm realistic so I wouldn't give a fuck if you're not my cup of tea neither I don't want to see anything related on you at all!! Go away!!! shoooo!!"

DoubleJia(middle):"I would just tempered on you if you don't agree on what I say!! Never do the plan B if I asked you to do plan A!!! You just do and hear what I say!!!! Don't ever try to judge on what I like to be!!!"

Christy(right):" Hello, I don't mind to be friend with you no matter who you're because I'm such a friendly person and kind as well!!"

But,
I still love to be with my ladies~!!