The break up

I was trying to send a message, telling him what I felt about our relationship, thinking it's time for us to TALK clearly on what we're really want. It is not a good way for us to be not contacting each other. Unfortunately, my phone was out of credit!!! What so coincidence again! It's been a week we never even text or talk to each other. But, after a few seconds, I received a message sent by him, asking what I would feel if we apart one day.
We talked on the phone, he explained the reason of his decision, I explained why I can respect for the final decision. "The being apart so call broke up is acceptable. Nothing surprise me because I’d expect this, long time ago." I mean…I know this day would come one day. He handled it very well which mean he made thing easier. What the reason is he has no time for anyone include his girlfriend. Erm..I know it’s just an excuse but I don't care because break up doesn't need an explanation!! I never told him what I really feel on this because explanation doesn't work much anymore. Although there had actually a lot of my own thinking, I was still speechless in the conversation. Because, I know what I really understand, he doesn't need to know.

During this relationship, he grow me up a lot, this is a fact I can tell. I feel I'm not the previous Maggie that I used to be anymore. I learn to be more independence without LOVE.

After a phone talk, he requested to see me. It was a pleasure of course which we can talk face to face for the last night. It's weird for us to break up for the last second but when he saw me, the first thing he did was giving a tight hug towards me. I felt it's much secured than last time when we’d still in a relationship. Somehow, our relationship is gone, no more responsibility among us but still, our actions were maintaining the same as usual. We act like a couple but we don't have the couple's real meaning. I think, this is the best way for us that no more burdens between he and I. We compromise to stop moving on our relationship and finally, the broke up were done. I'd get out his car, end up our peaceful broke up day with the biggest hug…

I would never forget the moment when we broke up. It's the sweetest broke up that I've been ever. Peace and uncomplicated.

"What we want are actually the same. We want our best career opportunity more than everything. We couldn’t sacrifice anything for love. We’re selfish, we’re realistic, we want freedom, we want brighter future more than the sweetest love, we protect ourselves more than helping each other, we’ve own goals to achieve but not love, we survive for our own self but not each other. We hide our ugliest side and show off the best for each other. We’re just not acting the truth of us."
Because, we're just not so into each other.
In my opinion, I know he doesn’t love me that much and neither I. The relationship have actually lack of LOVE.

This is why I never have a drop of tear for him but not because that I'm strong enough.
The best way for us is being apart, to fully concentrate to achieve our own dreams.

I'm a self-seeking anyway.