It's actually NOTHING!!!

As I've been two weeks ago never update my blog...It means that there have actually nothing special happened to me... I wonder if there have nothing to blog, it's actually better because it simply means that nothing sad or bad happened towards me... When people are sad or heart broken, blogging will always the best company... Express everything out that you've already hidden for a while or even for years over here, yet you'll absolutely relief....

Luckily, I blog for nothing....
The daily routines are still the same, he and I are also the same that we'll meet up after his work... I seldom hang out because I only realised the fun of staying in my own comfortable room~ XD

Once a few times, people will wonder why he will forget our important day about this or that.... Sometimes, we'll blame on each other about why he cannot blah blah blah... Even if he had actually did everything for you, but you still don't satisfy and keep on nagging at this and that... But, after you consider deeply, you'll find out that they actually do anything for any reason to make you happy... They just wanted to see your sweet smile, yes, it's that easy...
So, always hang up a sweet smile on your face, to make him feel secure and happy too...

"Life isn't a fairy tale, happy ending are few and far between. Realistic world are always surrounding us but who knows sometimes
Love can still spring in the most unlikely places..."

Until now, I actually still couldn't believe, he's with me...
The truth will never running away from me...
And the truth of us...
He is with me....

I've let you go...

Every time when I mention it, my tears wouldn't be in my control anymore...
I cried because the definition of friendship has been changed... Because disappointment came around when I read every one of your words...Because my heart had broken which actually nothing fault between us....

I've nothing much to say anymore or should say, I have nothing else to say at all... I flash back the moment we've been together for the 3 and a half years ago, I felt so secure to have you be my side...But now, things have been changed... I can't listen to your heart anymore, and you're blinded to look at me...

It just so disappointed...
And my heart had been cooled...

Friend is not for sharing, friend is part of our living purpose...Friend is to be appreciated...
That's my philosophy of true friend but now, it only turns into good friend...
I've always remember every words that you said to me...Never ever forget one word from yours... However, holding tight on this philosophy has no longer be needed anymore, I guess...

I shed my tears because I've let you go...

I need you but I know you don't need me anymore...

True Friend

I don't know what to say anymore for us... Sometimes, explanation has already blacken... I don't mean that but you think it is... Psychological...It's so funny... Thing has changed unexpectedly and suddenly...And I finally know, when a girl doesn't know anything about the fact, it's actually better... I used to posted whether a girl doesn't know the ugly truth, is that call lucky or stupid...
And still, I can't find the answer because everyone got their different point of view...

I might be too tough on handling my own philosophy but sometimes this is just what I heard and I just telling the truth that you should know, as you kept on asking me to say it now with the rejection on my face to face telling request... I told and yet, saying that I'm putting on fire which the thing is already exist before I know...

I burst my tears and think even more clearly the whole night... Time can heal everything but time cannot forgone what had been happened yesterday for our friendship...It was hurt...Truly hurt...I started to confused, I'd taken wrong definition on friendship... It's been too heavy for me to defined and now I know, it actually doesn't need that over concern...Even you concern about your friend, better act you don't know anything...Because, concern will unconditionally turn into an issue...

I came towards for you not the one you love...I felt so unworthy for you who ever do anything for your love one and finally get this kind of threaten...I never forget what you had told me in my room, your words that you speak it out to me, I've never taken it for granted... Never let the love one to influence us...And so, I only dare to talk to you as I firstly decided not to tell to avoid the case like before...But finally, it was wrong...

Girls ask me about you...Because people also treat you as their friend...They don't believe on something, and tell me... Maybe our concern is no longer be needed by you....Or you just don't love to hear it...I wonder if I didn't know all of this like other girls, I think it could be better...

"Your sincere concern sometimes becomes a fault and yet, you will be the stupid, who firstly from a good one turn into the bad one...And I decide, not to be the stupid one anymore..."

Maybe it's time for us to think on each other and even our own self if we're still being that understanding...My sincerity in this friendship is no longer been appreciated by you anymore since your trust on me has been declined..

Explanation has become a futile

Perhaps, friendship can be perpetuated

Do you remember the first time you fall in love with him?

I used to ask myself whether I still remember the first time that fall in love with someone...
I used to struggle in the same question which is "what love actually is"....
I used to be not that serious in a relationship with those guys, then broke up with them with no tears...
I used to tell myself a girl doesn't need love if she is independent enough...
I used to not believe in true love...

But here are all the "used to be"...

Sometimes you'll never know you're already unconditionally falling in love with him...
Sometimes you don't even remember when is the time that your heart started to beat for him..
Sometimes you'll never know love is actually simple when both of your hearts are linked...
Sometimes you'll just feel simply good when he is beside you, watching him to sleep tight...

Sometimes, we don't need to turn back the clock and do it all again the -first love, first kiss,first drink...But, this time, we just need to do it right...From now onwards, we just need to set out to right the wrongs of the past, there's just one niggling doubt... No one knows if life can ever be better because better life has being hold by your own...


"I don't remember the first time
when I fall in love with him
because now the fact of loving him is already existed..." I've found a safe place to rest with...I've keep your heart in mine...

If there have a relationship with true love,
any problem will not be a problem anymore...

I don't remember the first time that I fall in love with you, but I wouldn't forget that I'm living in your heart...