Grown Up through Competition

My blog was death for such a long time, I've abandoned it for several months...OooOPS

I used to post any of my lifestyles in my blog long time ago with my true feeling and thinking that store in my mind, I would like to explode it out through my little bloggie...

Well, of course, for this time, I've plenty of mind that I need to express it out all the way...

Ok...Before the few weeks ago, I thought I'd figure out what all the wrongs that I'd ever made for my dance crew in terms of synchronization, choreography and etc....But, in fact, it seems a little worse off after I'd change something...I guess I'd missed out something very basic for my dance team....I might force them too hard to do something which exceed their ability, or I'd forget to guide them in foundation...I bring them fly when they didn't know how to walk, because I always thought they will find out when they get enough experiences....I guess this would be the biggest mistake that cause the result into up-side-down way...

For the reason I lose it, because I might be too much dependable and I might be too keen on learning from stars.... I never thought and I never even want to learn from people who I never heard before even if public agree that he/she is great....There have plenty of chance for me last few weeks, but I missed it because I think there have something more important than it which is the family...But, honestly, for the last time of me, I would probably learn any anything that I could even if there have plenty of blocks....I wonder, when I become such out of aspiration....I guess, because the days that I'm in Malaysia has been decreased day by day....
That's why I lost it, that's why I missed it..

I'm awake from that, the terms of originality is no longer that important as long as there have a modify, as long as you dance with full heart... And, I keep on watching their video, I ponder it deeply on the way they step up....I saw full effort, I saw their growth, maturity and confidence which not just build in last minutes....Besides, I consider mine one, and I know it's not because of choreography or synchronization, it's because lack of soul....Where are the soul gone? and, How could I lead them to find their own soul?

Other than that, I finally realize that, when it comes to effort, it comes with luck...
And, I finally understand why they keep on changing their name...



I am awake from this competition....

I remember every effort that we did