Lies? Affairs?

Look at the time now..

it's already early in the morning..

Christmas is over...

And also, I'm listening “it's over”..

I had been waiting for u the whole day and the whole night even a few days.

There are too many “unexpected” things happened suddenly.

I felt so disappointed on it

but

what I can do is- listen, wait and support.

The fact has placed in front of me; do I know what I am going to do?
I guess I know it clearly…..
Yes, I admit that I was so afraid and frustrated on this.

Should I be faithful to this relationship? Take it seriously? I...I don't even know. You’ve run out the reasons, given me a lot of excuses. I didn’t know whether it is true but finally I get the answer after observing by myself. I know I had already lost my trust on you. But, I’m still beside you and act nothing because I want to get back the one I want! This is so unfair to me so I must be the winner!

Because I want you and your heart always be there for me!!

If you're having an affair, I can forgive everything on what you've done if you tell me honestly.
At least, I'm not cheated and not buried inside the fact.
People will feel sympathy on my stupidity, but you have to know, this is the only way that I can stay beside you.

I will not let my heart open.

Beautiful lies, unbelievable, sweet talks, disappointed, unexpected are always there and perhaps, I can handle it.

I'm not that type to get my heart broken and also not that fragile to let my tears drown.

I hate myself.

Hate myself that why I figured out these?

Everything would be ok if I didn't know everything and just be the usual.

I used to be a faithful girl but in the end, I got have nothing, nothing at all!

I used to have an affair before, and then I get this revenge.

I know I were the bad girl before, and now I got all the symptoms!

Something reminded me;

I would still be the same and stay beside you because I know time can heal it..

I would turn a blind eyes on this...

Am I already been frozen in our relationship?!

When is my deadline?!

* sorry if I misunderstood you..