Behind the white lies, it's really ugly!

Feel so wanna blogging with the "I can feel a hot one" background music..

We chat as usual just now..
Sweet talks everywhere eventhough that's only sweet to listen~

Since when, I started to talk white lies..
The 3 words "I love you" for me is so so damn easy to speak it out...
And then , for me, what is a big deal of talking those 3 words?!

You know how to flirt, I know how to biatchy anyway~~

Until today, I admit that I actually forget
what is the so-call "fall in love" feeling to him...
He might shocked and he thought he was the one who make a change on me...
Apparently not...! I've became someone else since I live independently..
but I just didn't noticed that until the day we started our relationship and yet, end our relationship like just so "NOTHING",

Only I know...What a real person I am!

You're the one who make me really understand on what kind of person I actually am!

You said you're not sure on why you would tell me "I LOVE YOU" all the time..
But I don't even know what is the purpose of telling you "I love you" everytime..( that most probably people thought "the hardest word to say")..
I spoke that easily because I just want to involve myself into that situation..

Maybe...I LOVE YOU doesn't mean much to me anymore~

So now...You can clearly figure out who I am~

"White lies are always nice to hear but behind the scence,

it is actually ugly!"

I confessed to him, I don't know what is love actually, I only know the realist world...
That's why I can accept what you've done to me outside, that's in my expectation tho!...
I know it early when the 1st second that I started the decision on being together with you~

I know the real world since I'm part of them...

But I didn't do anything that betrayed you..

My sincerity is still there..

People will think that your action was actually betraying me..but as you said to me:" thats only ma...not a big deal for you gua.." " you jealous or unhappy?" HOHOHO... You're right...such thing really not a big deal for me anymore... I'm not jealous, I answered truly, since you didn't mentioned both of you end up the relationship and, I was the one who step in between yours 1st...

Nobody fault on this kind of situation....
Because...

This is the Real World....The Real human-being...The real you...and the real Me...!

p/s :Realistic is only the minor part... The real personality of yourself, don't hide as it will become black-est! Show it to the people around you, let them know..you live with it~
I myself, know my negative personality, but i treat it as the real me...

I'm not a white paper tho~

Never forget what you've told me
" You pretend not to know but actually you've already know"

* Sorry D, I don't mean to hurt you, just want to let you know my actual feeling on our relationship, but I do really treat you with my sincere true heart..I mean it...sorry..*

Frankly, we know each other....