Learn to say "NO"

"People tend to do something that they think it is just alright, but it's actually wrong and definitely, they themselves know about their fault..." Yes, I know about it...

Things around, always remind me " you should stop all of this, you don't deserve these kind of conditions..." Yea...I know...I should deserve better instead of doing such "temporary have fun" things and get nothing at all..Listen up, it's nothing benefit me at all~!

Unfortunately, I don't know how to keep it back anymore...My playfulness has betrayed me until I can't find a way to stop it...I consciously know, we couldn't turn all of this back...Lies, insincere are always out there between us...
"I enjoyed the so-called "wrong" moment, yet feel bad on my enjoyable..."
How sad it is on being such a person like me!! Isn't that funny huh??!!

Everytime I tell myself, don't do the same wrongdoings again, eventhough it doesn't hurt me, it might be in someday. I myself don't even know why I am doing these...Imagine the worst thing happen to me if I still never learn how to say "NO", I clearly understand how life will be going on to me...

I can live alone without anyone no matter how bad the condition is, I really did before and now, I'm living so too...But, "my strength on being a good person seems to be faded away..."Should say, I've chosen to be the bad one...
I broke my promise, and still standing at the same point, never step forward, never learn how to say "NO" to the wrongdoings...

These can be the lonely days, and it's hard to know who's on my side most of the time...Friends around me are always so supportive, but sometimes it just couldn't be satisfied...
Because I never learn how to say "NO" to the incoming fun wrongdoings.

Is there anybody else to make a change for me? Hopefully, there has a place for me to be a good one, to have a stable life, to live and share happiness with someone I love... The one I love, is still staying far far away from me...And since I step in my current life, I do everything just to achieve my dreams, and so, I forget to see those people around me...I'm just blind on seeing people around me because in my eyes, there has only money, life styles, success exist...
"Yes, the realistic of me still never been changed and it seems getting worst until I don't know how to say 'NO' to them..."

Enjoy my wrongdoings, so I only get the wrong thing...
Since when I can learn how to say "NO" to the wrongdoings, to get a good thing I've ever dream for?? Since when....