I just finished watching a Hong Kong Drama < 女人最痛〉.. It was a realist movie, and after watching it, I've plenty of thoughts in my mind... It's really express something from mine, I was thinking will I be like just in the drama... I haven't work in a society yet, but I couldn't make sure what I will be after that... It really brings me to think of the issues of personality and attitude... Being selfish, being realistic.. Is success need sacrifice?!
Do I know how to balance everything?
Love, I need, You as well, despite I know what I really want... The drama has given me a warning.. However, I know it's just a drama...Things can be change depends on how you've decided...
Anyhow, I will learn to be self-satisfied...
I can't deny that I'd change tho...
Today, when I went there, I couldn't accept the flirting anymore no matter how good-looking the Brits are...If I'm still the past time me, I'm probably not being like this..
Since when I become so conscious....I know 80% because of Takashi..
I had some argument with him today..Then, I went to club.. My friend was flirting with a French, Brits were around me..
He couldn't fade away from my minds, and I didn't enjoy the flirting anymore..
I was drunk, I went to the washroom, a lot of thoughts popped out in my mind.. I was thinking...I'm no longer a girl, I'm legally an adult, staying in the UK without family and boyfriend...I suddenly feel alone..I miss them....I never been as home sick as today until I was drunk...My minds were totally clear and it told me "Lonely" is around..
Brits are handsome, but Takashi has more....
girl,don't feel lonely.
ReplyDeletewhen u know that there are many ppl in the same situation as u,u'r not 'lonely'
it's normal to have home sick,it's normal to miss them
but u know that this is what u've chosen
this is what u wanted.
u have a target to reach,u have a mission to complete.and this is what u chose.
u know that u ll be with them again one day,when ur target is reached.
gambatte girl.
i've been in the same situation.and i came out from that.
it's not that i don't love them anymore,it's just that i've grown up.
and certainly,i'm more independent now,although i didn't want to..