Worry through an unknown

Had been plagued by something which is so indescribable since last night...
I never ever know how to express my true feeling as well as this time...
I can't figure out what I am worrying for...Perhaps, there's someone help me shed some light...

I honestly trust the one who I suppose to trust although it is not entirely since every circumstance might have excluded... At least I know I'm trusting the right person...
But,
what makes me frowned?
I ponder it deeply and then surrounded by one question..
Do I trust myself?
The confidence that a person suppose to have has inclined when it comes to an uncertainty..
when you can't know what everything is happening around...
when you feel like being buried deep down separately..
when you can't even find out what answer do you actually want...

Then you finally realize, it isn't a matter of anybody, it's a matter of your ownself..
My confidence to myself has faded because I couldn't find any reason to stop it as I consciously know anything can be happened just like a blink without any intention where there has no one fault...

"Goes with the flow just seem to be too lost for me..."

I hate walking with no direction...