Thing is actually better

The 1st day…

I’m still not sure what the feeling is but I’m pretty sure that we gotta make it work…
Similarly, my heartbeat was still jumping abnormal since this early in the morning… And, I am totally drawing a blank on how we’re going to face each other when we meet…I just don’t know what to do~~~blah blah blah!!! Because we used to be friend and just a night past, it's hard for us to change our action180 degree...
It's kinda awkward...
Be naturally is the best I guess… Naaaaah~~~

Sometimes, we just don’t jump to the conclusion too fast because you’ll never know what would happen mentally and break the chain that you always thought it should be in a very few seconds…

Sometimes, in the physical world, it might just look so "thing-should-be-like-this" always but, our mental is hard to control especially in LOVE stuff…Because the feel will always change until it find the right place to rest…
Yet, you’ll realized, the truth feeling will never lie~

Sometimes, thing will never goes well like what you've thought, but it maybe goes even better!!

If it is possible, just make it happen~

We'll never let the time pass with nothing!!

You make a change for me...

Heart Beating

Phew….my heart is still beating that fast…
I just couldn’t expect thing will be happened on this time…
He is always a good guy in my heart and I never expect the good guy is beside me…
I never expect the good guy actually appeared for few months ago…
A lot of thing, are never in my prediction.
And now, it’s happened…
I really thought we’re just friend at the beginning…

Who knows there have actually good thing exist, who knows the better thing maybe happened in the next second…

ARRRRHHHH I’m still in a very nervous status!!!!!!!

I know love from your eyes..

Dare not or Don't?

I thought I would be in a very good sleep this morning, but I suddenly become so conscious to think what's happening to me... Then, I can't fell asleep anymore.
I read his blog yesterday, I wonder how this would be... The differences between a pair of friend and lover... The dare not to love or don't love question, he wrote... I don't know who he was writing but the symptoms are so alike...
I am always surrounding in this circle, drawing a blank on don't love or dare not to love...

I read his blog again this morning, recall the things happen in these few weeks ago, it was great and simple... Isn't it? We don't make it complicated, we don't think too much... But, it doesn't seem like what we always done... The Feeling, I don't know how to describe, and so do you, we have no clue...

I always tell myself, I have a long long journey to go, I have various of people I need to know, I have plenty of dreams to accomplish... I plan for everything... My future, my studies, my money, my everything include I don't love... But still, I miss out something... I thought friends around me will always be that simple to hang out and having fun together... In fact, it doesn't seem like this...I miss out something, carelessly...

Yes, we've thinked too much...everything is just an imagination.... Everything is just for us to escape from being lonely, and to find someone to be our partner...
It is all about loneliness which has make us lost...

Like usual, I always tell myself, I don't love because I don't know what it is...

• When I know what love actually is, it never be that beautiful anymore...

• When I don't know what love actually is, it always looks like a mystery and you'll never know when you will fall for it...

• When I know what love actually is, it draws me like a stupid...

• When I don't know what love actually is, it simply because I never dare to step on it...

Some little thing happened yesterday, I thought the man is sincere to his gf, but he doesn't know the love's distriction... Eventhough it was not a fault, it might cause serious sadness...
It's no longer the first time anymore, I see the ugly truth agaaaiiiin!!!
Sometimes,
I wonder if a girl doesn't know the truth,
Is this call lucky?
or stupid?

"When I CLEARLY know what love actually is, it becomes a terror..."

If it is possible, let's make it happen

Stop the old one, and let the new one comes toward you~

Initially, everything go well in these few weeks. In spite of the exam period, my daily routines still have done as usual. Nevertheless, when sometimes I couldn’t focus on my revision, a lot of minds would suddenly pop up.

I’ve made my decision since my previous article to stop everything that I felt it is not suppose to be continued. And my decision was strong because at the same time, my mind has totally changed because I found out something that important for our entire life. My friend was right, I should stop this to let the new things come toward me.

Even though we’ve been gone through this, it doesn’t mean we gonna finish it. It is not necessary to be completed due to the pointless result that both of us know clearly.

When the other party doesn’t have the intention to stop it, I will stop it, because enough is never quit enough. It’s even worst if we don’t know “what’s enough”.

Well, things around me have been changed, I mean, I step in a different environment and start to view the different point. Everything which has been happened and over, it could make a change for us. "No matter the change is physically or mentally, I’m still holding my philosophies, tightly and gracefully."

When decision has made, I mean it.

Recently, I’ve received one video from my friend which I’ve uploaded on my Facebook as well. It is full of meaning with “everyone has their own love story which directed by themselves”. Story begins with how you treat people as whether in a good attitude or bad one. Story begins with how you handle your relationship and how you think love as.

And of course, I’ve truly considered what my character is in the love story. Then, I finally realized it had never been so serious since I started to live in the new environment last time. But now, it had past.

In fact, everything is just a lesson or a procedure for me to grow up and see through the real thing in the real world.

"I opened up my heart, see through the one who really live in, yet, a smile hang up on my face. I digest everything that stored in my mind, and read through the real me again, then I finally know, thing should be like this."

My first new ring might be a good start.

The Changing

During the exam period, I admitted that I didn’t really pay lot of efforts on it. It doesn’t seem like the same motivation that I had for the last semester. I don’t know why my motivation has gone and study for meaningless.
I would like to blog here to express myself tho’, express my boringness on reading “nothing special” subject, memorizing those “useless for your future” stuff.

Anyhow, the main purpose is to post my actual thinking for today…
Something happened today as usual, yet I realized that I’m sick on it aaagggaaaiiinn. My satisfaction has been declined and I can’t feel any passion on it anymore. I didn’t enjoy it at all as what I had done before. It was totally different feeling compare to last time that I did!!
"It seems lack of “something”, and the “thing” is actually didn’t exist since we started this."
At the beginning, I didn’t care about “it” because people always search for excitements. But now, I suddenly feel that “it” has become an essential on doing this.
Without “it”, the game is boring.
Without “it”, the game is meaningless.
Without “it”, the game is still a GAME.

Or should say something obvious, my playfulness has gone, I’m sick and bored on playing this, is it a time for me to find a stable life with a stable "him"? WOW~~ Sounds funny anyway~ LOL.

Anyhow, I don’t really think of it but the situation might look slightly alike, due to the incident that I dreamt for these several nights… The dreams were so real but in real life, it just too impossible. "The dreams' story weren’t same every time but the message to be delivered is obviously same. "
I guess, there would have some clues in the dream. It was a good dream honestly, but it just looks too unbelievable. I don’t know why, I just feel it is so impossible to be happened. Therefore,
I don’t give any expectation on it because I’ve locked my heart.
Stop entering in those relationship stuffs,
because I don’t know when I can learn how to love,
and
I don’t know when I can walk out the terror from being hurt.

I can only realize LOVE, if someday my love has been aroused.

Everything might have a change~

You're GAME OVER

Well well well, I've just finished up our conversation....oooppsss~~~ I end this up???!!!
Hell no!!!
We never step forward to improve our relationship after since you end up our relationship last time with the reason "not enough time"~~God pls, I can't feel your passion at all and even mine!!
I think you would never expected I could be so cold-blooded that sudden huh... hmm...
Simply because I wanna play more to reach my satisfaction before you reach yours...

Since you always wear your mask when you WERE together with me, I might as well hide my real personality too...dude..~
Since you created this game, let's play!

Who cares about the love.... You don't even take it seriously why should I do neither?
Really a big age gap between us huh...Your point of view really doesn't same as mine~!

Mummmyyyy.....oh sweetheart, calling that freaking sweeeeet to me huh...
AWWW man~~ Do you think I always be that kind on doing what you request for?
Hey, I need to have fun tho but it's not come from yours~ because I'm bored enough~~ *YAWN*

Who are u ?
A pass-by-ex-"lover"..
now, it's GAME OVER~
Thanks for giving me such a good moment.. You grow me up man~!!!
Thanks "daddy"~!!!

Be smart~

City Bayview Performance

hmmm...I seldom post my dancing life in my bloggie actually because it's a daily routine...
But this time it could be a little bit different..

In this article, there have no party, no pretty dress, no high heels and blah blah blah...

nah~~~ no craping here...just straight to the point...

Fresh Beat Academy

Terrence, nice post!


Vera & Maggie

RED & WHITE

Awwwww!!!!! Here's the "famous" celebrities!!

The muscle man and the little ladies~~!!

Tall VS. Short

Life goes on and luckily, I found myself with them...No pressure but only laughters exist...

I love being with all of you..

The fact of Guys & Girls in the city

Guys:

9 out of 10 guys are the same...They like to find girls when they're bored, when they're lonely, when they need girls....

I'll never say those girls who willing to accompany you guys are STUPID, but unfortunately, what I would say is...Girls need guys to have fun too!!~

~Don't forget, the fact is always ugly! ~

Guys always thought that they're the animal who can control girl's smartness, but indirectly, guys' stupidness might more than girls' tho~! As everyone can see, guys like to have affairs with another girl even if they have their loyal beloved one,but... advise to those guys who have fun at outside, don't treat girls as just only your toy, they even smarter than you

Do you thought girls will only willing to do anything that you asked for without any benefit?!

Don't be naive anymore~LOL..

Guys will never expected girls are actually treaten boys as their toys too...

"Guy want to have fun, doesn't mean girl will never play a fool on you!"

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Girls:
9 out of 10 girls are the same...They always live in sweet talks from guys... Girls always thought guys give sweet talks to them is because they're pretty or they're being loved...
However, sorry to tell that,
Guys are actually want to taste on girls and will be back when only they miss the enjoyable flirting moment... Or maaayyyybe that girl is just look too fuckable~~
Girls like to control their man and make sure that they're home punctually,
do you think they'll never have an affairs with other girls outsite when you restrict them?!
Don't be naive anymore~ LOL
Girls will never expected their action in controlling their man will indirectly make the thing worse off!!
Besides,
Girls only hope boys to be sincere to them, but girls like to flirt with other guys in fact~
Because girls' natural preferable is listening to the sweet talks...
So
"don't expect your man to be a loyal boyfriend to you, if you don't even give a fuck to him but to others!"

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Guys and girls in the city,
combine together to achieve what they want,
It's not actually love exist, but it's actually a deal,
guys wish to have what they want, and girls neither!!
She wants him to be like that, he wants her to be like this...
Isn't that a deal?
A deal with full of excitement, which can reach both wants...
No doubt...Here's the realist world...
Don't blame on any one of the party that they don't give sincerity to you, somehow, is you yourself who don't do your responsibility...

Guys, don't think girls as a stupid;
Girls, don't think guys are the bad one...

Because, sometimes both of these gender's has unconditionally exchange but they just didn't noticed that...
Which means....

"Guys is actually the stupid when they thought they're smarter than girls, and girls is absolute the bad biatch when they thought they're pretty good compare with guys!!"


So, don't blame anyone, because both guys and girls are actually the same species~
Since the natural human being is----> SELFISH & EGOISTIC

P/S:(Article above is based on my own opinion without pointing specific person...)