I do need you badly~

Again, I have a kind of uncomfortable feeling towards him. It’s just very scary and I feel something wrong between it. He didn’t date me when he has to go KL for a few days although he knew I am available for him! This is just pissed me off. I drove through his house, noticed that his car is already gone. A lot of questions suddenly popped up in my mind.

1. Why didn’t he just inform me or even give me a text?
2. How could I check this out?
3. Do I need to continue this relationship?
4. How could I know whether he loves me?
5. Do I really love him?
6. What is the feeling of fall in love?
7. Do we suitable to be together?
8. Is he cheating on me?
9. Should I trust him?

All of these are just a question but not the answer for me.

This kind of feeling is just same with last time that I used to be. I don’t want the thing repeat it again and again! I hate those unpleasant stuffs. There are too many pressures I need to bring them up now like studying, working and relationship. I just hope everything will be ok.

But, it doesn't seem to be.

Rome was not built in one day, I know it but this is too sudden! I really need his support right now because I am really upset. I need you but do you listen to me? I hope I can burst my tears now so that I can breathe well. But I can’t! This is much more suffering!
When you lose the one you wanted, because he taken you for granted and everything you got had seem to be destroyed.

6:19pm
God! Do you know what I’m thinking right now? Don’t you?
OH MY GODNESS!
He phoned me suddenly while I'm blogging right now and told me that his hand phone had been ringing just now but he didn’t notice that.

I shouldn’t think negatively on him. I should believe him.

Every cloud has a silver lining; I can clearly feel it at this moment.

Thing is always possible to get something positive out of a situation.

Phew. I walked out of this.

Nope! Is, he lend me a hand to walk out of this.

You just make me spinning around for you!