Just Aim For the Target~

I saw him yesterday because I had to return him the auto-cleaner. W. T. F. I hate people disturbed me when I was asleep. I was really impolite to him, maybe this is what I just would done to him but not other. Actually, I had some kind of feeling towards him. Hate him and also feel so sorry to him. I am kind a bad person apparently. Sometimes people must be cold-blooded when there is necessary for you to do so. I’m sorry that I’m bad, I’m sorry about the thing I said to you but these are what I just can do to make your hurts recover faster. "Please don’t expect anything on me anymore because I was the one who destroyed our relationship. Don’t call me even if I cross your mind, this will just make you struggle on it. Just forget what my good was because I’m not that good as you thought actually."

People always exchange the character that they’ve done before to somebody.
I can truly understand and absolutely believe on this. The road was chosen by me, so I should take it seriously although I know it is not that easy. Some people love to take challenging and at the end, you either can get the best or the worst. The gamble is always like to make you addicted on it as long as you still have the affordable to stand for it.
And now, I’m doing all of this because my stubbornness and I extremely wanted to get the best instead of terrified for the worst. How dare I am to take this risks!
In my opinion, at least I’ve done for my choice but not given up in the half way. So, no matter what he told me, I just listen and keep in my mind. Although I know there have actually a lot of unreliability, I still keep a trust on you. Because sometimes I really think too much on that when I saw the fact.
So,
it is a good thing for me to not know anything but just only listen to him.
I should always turn a deaf ear.

Honestly, I felt I am really faked on doing all of this to you as actually I could don’t need to do so. Because I just clearly know, I do that purposely to get my target.
But anyway,
what my target is just you. However, I just scared after I got you, I would not be that faithful again. I wonder why I become so bad.
People said, you will do anything to your beloved one without any reason but I’m totally different! Now only I know, actually I’m doing something that is unnecessary. I just think of him when I know I need a guy. Oh my goosh.
I’m just such a…BIATCH~